About Dreams. I had a nite full of dreams last nite. I reli prefer to have a dreamless sleep though. Coz dey r often incoherent & that's pretty disturbing. It oso feels like i didnt rest my brain at all.

And as usual, i can't remember every single bit of wad i dreamt about & it's kinda frustrating. But i read somewhere it's normal U can't, and dat trying to remember your dreams regularly helps to improve your memory.

I dreamt dat i got a pet pup.

There was no mention of whether i bought it myself or somebody gave it to me. But then again, if i have bought it myself, i shud hv felt the pinch, even in my dreams. A pup is NOT CHEAP u noe.

Interestingly, in the dream, i noe nuts about keeping the pup alive. (So it must be a gift, if not i wud hv done my research beforehand if i had planned to buy one.)

I didnt even have stocks of can food for my dear pup! (See? Again. Must be a gift.)

But i did have a metal fence to surround up a small compound for the pup. But the metal fence cud possibly be another gift dat came along wif the pup. So thoughtful of the gift-giver.

But he/she shud hv thrown in some can food as well...afterall, food is more impt to kip the pup alive rite!?

Then i dreamt dat somehow, i was due to visit Japan, and i was troubling over who's to take care of my new pet while i was away.

Bcoz i didnt have can food (dun ask mi y didnt i just buy it), i fed my dog sliced watermelons.

Den it got reli dirty as days go by, and i remember somebody in reality told mi dat dogs do not bathe very often, perhaps once a week wud suffice, or it might die!

So i tried to persevere till end of the week but it got so filthy dat its coat of white fur had turned a slight grey. Plus, i don't have dog shampoo.

U cud imagine how troubled i was when i woke up.

I cudn't reli recall the rest of my miscellaneous dream. Coz it's not related to the dog.

But i do remember said pup looks like something of the following:


The Pup I Think I Dreamt About.



  ¶ J poppycocked at 6:57:00 PM
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  Retreat. Know when to lay down ur pride, pick up the fone & dial the number.

Toss out the defenses for they are nothing but excuses to the ears.

Enough. A blind eye cannot be turned to everything.  ¶ J poppycocked at 7:32:00 PM
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  Whoa. It is true that i dun visit all my frens' blogs very often, but OMG, 70! Wad happend 2 urs???

http://www.sweetandsourlove.blogspot.com/

I swear it was almost like a virtual funeral.  ¶ J poppycocked at 6:07:00 PM
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  So Frrreeeeeeeeeeakkkin' Cute! I shamelessly ripped dis off some site full of cute animals & pets. Here's one dat amused mi to no end.


May The Force Be Wif U, Hami Wan.  ¶ J poppycocked at 11:50:00 PM
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  FMCU Took a cab back after an overworked day, and kena dis Farney-Malay-Cabby-Uncle. I'm just gonna abbreviate it to FMCU for convenience's sake.

Please imagine the following scenario to be belted out by a damn drama sounding FMCU & a very monotonous Me. He was more action than an action-barbie.

The gist of our conversation went like dis:

FMCU: U noe Miss, if anybody tells me the Earth is round, i will say "U dun Beh-Deh la!!"
Me: Oh..?
FMCU: Meaning, how many people actually went up to the Moon or outer space & saw dat the Earth is REELI round??
Me: Uh huuhh....
FMCU: Over a billion over people in the world, only 3 ever reali went up to the moon see it from outside. Apollo13, Amstrong &...Aiya..maybe dey come back also kena screwed by the America's President. Maybe the President tekaned dem to tell people the Earth is round!! Who noes rightttt???
Me: -_-''' Hur. Maybe.
FMCU: Ya! I study until Primary 6 only but my mind ah...very sharp ok? I will ask alot of questions..like i don't bliv everything dat the Prophets said. Same goes for the Bible. I dun blindly embrace the religion ok..
Me: Wouldn't dat be contradicting to your religion then? (I assumed he's a Muslim)
FMCU: Ah! Dat is a very good question!! I asked my Muslim friends "How U know God's name is Allah??" Dey say "Bcoz it's written in the Q'uran!" I asked dem "Listen carefully, i asked HOW YOU noe??" Dey canot answer mi, y' noe? See all their faces start to stress..I asked my Christian friend, Steven, in the Holy Bible, God said he created heaven, hell & the solar systems in 6 days & he wento rest. O PLEASE????!?!!? How is dat possible?!?! Why didnt God also create light & speed then??
Me: Den Christians may argue God is able to create Heaven, Hell & the Solar System in 6 days bcoz he is dat omnipotent wad. Dey also can say light & speed are created bcoz God gave dem the power to do so.
FMCU: Den i will say "U must come & take the kiko wif mi?", den dey will ask "Wad is kiko??" Den dat is exactly wad i 'm saying! Wad is kiko?? (Took mi a 3 secs to realise he's trying to emphasize on the importance of questioning the given truth)
Me: Right....U must have made alot of enemies then.
FMCU: Ya...I bliv in "Wad u hear, see & touch is true" & dis saying is from where u noe? From Buddha. But religions are impt, to keep the people in order. Even tho i'm a free-thinker, i practise Islam at home, as an example to my kids, if not nxt time dey hv no religion & my son will say "Fuck u!" when i tell him to do something...hahaha..
Me: Oh? U r a free-thinker, dat makes u the same as me.
FMCU: U free-thinker also ah!??? Alamak! Waste my breath! I tot U......
Me: Hahaha.
FMCU: Rare right? To mit a Malay like me?
Me: Actually, not reli. I met quite a few who r like dat too.
FMCU: O reli??? Interesting.
Me: Yep, very interesting, tomoro i will go back to my office & tell my colleagues dat the Earth might not be round.
FMCU: Dun la...it's better to maintain peace & harmony..
Me: But U've made ur share of enemies, so now it's my turn.
FMCU: hahaha!! U ah! Koyak la!!
Me: Anyway, thanks Uncle. Bye! (Upon alighting)
FMCU: U take care, & stay alive!!
Me: I'll try.
FMCU: Hahahaa!

Disclaimer: This entry has no intentions to malign or belittle any religions in particular. Everything shud be taken wif a note of humour. The above mentioned is but an actual report of a true conversation which took place on my way home. (please dun sue me?)
  ¶ J poppycocked at 10:27:00 PM
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  Dark. I'm on leave today. Had quite a nice & simple affair on Vday. I wonder wad did other couples do?

I've decided to change my blogskin out of sheer boliaoness. And took quite a long time to get all the configurations & personalization right. So, phew. Finally.

The pic of the skin is very nice. Mi like it beri much. Hence the choice. Tink it's meaningful. Trapped in a bottle floating on a sea of stars. So nice but yet like abit helpless...yes?

Anyway...while i was tinking of wad to put down to describe myself, i had to ponder over it for quite a long time.

I came to a conclusion.

I figured i m largely insecure. Coz i m alwaz thinking of when i wud be losing my job...losing my frens...losing my family...losing my money...losing my bf....etc. But reli, i shud be tinking of when i wud be getting a promotion...look forward to miting new people....how to love my family more....how to make more money...how to treat my bf better...etc.

Moreover, I realise i hv to constantly remind myself not to be depressed. I tink it's bof a subconscious & a conscious effort. And i dun tink dis is very healthy. I used to tink dat dis disease will oni happen to people who r alwaz cooped up in the house.

I wonder if dis is an inevitable stage of growing up?

I m also haunted. Bcoz i canot 4get the past, seems like unhapi memories stick around longer than the hapi ones. It's difficult to let go, especially when dey seem to be oredi etched in the soul.

I reli tink dat the 'Ghost in Me' is the culprit for everything.

Wad about the 'Ghost' in u?

Is it haunting u too?  ¶ J poppycocked at 9:58:00 PM
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  Epitome of Suayness. All the predictions for Dogs in the Year 2006 are by far, negative. In fact, it has been depressing. Well, but kind people around me kept insisting that such horoscopes/ zodiac/ star signs/ astronomical/ gypsie looking into the crystal ball/ tarot cards/ green & yellow bird picking out cards to tell ur fortune/ palmistry/ peeling an apple at 12 midnite to see ur future partner's face in the mirror etc are not 100% accurate.

Well of coz, i noe some part of these methods are based on myths & without scientific proof, but ya noe...u can still get a teeny weeny more paranoid when it seems like all are pointing against u.

Just when i tot i m oredi as suay as i can get, i bumped into The Ex today.

Well, not exactly "bumped into", more like "saw & ran away", but still, SUAY.

Then, just b4 i left the office, i had sent a msg meant for 1 of my colleagues thru our internal messaging system to the Ah Lian Manager, toking ABOUT the Ah Lian Manager.

Cock? Yes i tink so too. It is pretty much as cock as it gets.

And u guessed it right, there was an awkward moment & a pressured laugh.

Judging by my suayness, looks like no amount of Toto tickets are going to up my chances at the shot of the 2-millioner dis week.

TMD.  ¶ J poppycocked at 11:49:00 PM
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  Do I Look Like A Goat to U??? Tell me again, why am i alwaz the one to be sacrificed????

Like.....ALWAZ???!??

Whyyyyyyyyyyyy?????????????????????????????????????  ¶ J poppycocked at 10:10:00 PM
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  Cease. When the reason it all began wif starts to cease, altho i duno if STARTING to cease is ever possible coz cease is just cease u noe? O......but let's not get into dat now, i was toking about wad wud happen when the reason it all began wif begins to diminish; we lose our minds & hearts to 4get why it all started in the 1st place.

When the one reason is rendered invalid, it will be accompanied by thousand of other reasons why it will no longer work. If not by the conscience, the subconscience will do the job.

Everything dat was right wif me becomes wrong. And everything dat has nothing to do wif mi becomes interesting suddenly.

Wow. Tok about a huge blow to the self-esteem.  ¶ J poppycocked at 11:46:00 PM
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