Dark. I'm on leave today. Had quite a nice & simple affair on Vday. I wonder wad did other couples do?

I've decided to change my blogskin out of sheer boliaoness. And took quite a long time to get all the configurations & personalization right. So, phew. Finally.

The pic of the skin is very nice. Mi like it beri much. Hence the choice. Tink it's meaningful. Trapped in a bottle floating on a sea of stars. So nice but yet like abit helpless...yes?

Anyway...while i was tinking of wad to put down to describe myself, i had to ponder over it for quite a long time.

I came to a conclusion.

I figured i m largely insecure. Coz i m alwaz thinking of when i wud be losing my job...losing my frens...losing my family...losing my money...losing my bf....etc. But reli, i shud be tinking of when i wud be getting a promotion...look forward to miting new people....how to love my family more....how to make more money...how to treat my bf better...etc.

Moreover, I realise i hv to constantly remind myself not to be depressed. I tink it's bof a subconscious & a conscious effort. And i dun tink dis is very healthy. I used to tink dat dis disease will oni happen to people who r alwaz cooped up in the house.

I wonder if dis is an inevitable stage of growing up?

I m also haunted. Bcoz i canot 4get the past, seems like unhapi memories stick around longer than the hapi ones. It's difficult to let go, especially when dey seem to be oredi etched in the soul.

I reli tink dat the 'Ghost in Me' is the culprit for everything.

Wad about the 'Ghost' in u?

Is it haunting u too?  ¶ J poppycocked at 9:58:00 PM