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Thursday, September 30, 2004
  valuable lessons learnt for jay 2day.
1) Independence is the key to a happy self. The moz dependable person is still MYSELF.

2) Moderate hopes placed on pp ard u coz when u xpect less, the negative outcome will have less impact on u. If the outcome is positive, it can b an additional bonus n a delightful surprise.

3) Loneliness can b enlightening stimes. Now dat i hv learnt how to shop alone, i MUST learn how to eat alone in public.

4) Over-reliance on pp ard u= Taking status quo for granted. New taboo in my life.

5) Latest resolution: Get a job soon n make LOADS of money.

6) Take life less seriously. Life wud b ezier dis way.

7) There is nothing wrong in pampering myslf. Oni when i noe how to love myslf can i learn how to love others.

and last but not least.....

8) Not all Charles & Keith shoes r comfortable.


Went for an interview 2day. Wish all interviewers wud b s nice s the interviewer 2day. Going for more 2mr. Shall blog about it later.
 
  wat a nite.
Just done chiding some bitch/arse on HL's blog AND i m so NOT sori for spitting at dat person. I did it n i will do it again *PHUI!* So sue mi!!!!

Anyway, a used-to-be-my-significant-other, let's juz call him D, (pp ard mi shd noe who la huh) msged mi juz now askg "how r u..gd?" Being the evil one, i didnt reply him. My reason is bcoz i distinctly rber informing my change of hp no twice n yet he msged mi to the old no. Not dat i can't get the msg now but the fact dat i'm stuck wif 2 lines now was pretty much bcoz of him, i tink he shdnt hv the cheek to take another stab in the situation.

Call mi a sore bitch or a petty arse, altho everytg b/w us has officially ended say many moons ago, but i still get pissed whenever his name comes up, largely at my own stupidity actly. Lemme unveil the mystery of dis 2 sims i hv now once n for all. It all began when i was lusting for a GD88 some yrs ago (read: the time when we were stil 2gther), but the fone was too ex so i had to settle for a nokia 3650 (i.e. the pinky). The fone wud come at a significantly cheaper price if i got 2 sims (meaning 2 lines) n D offerred to help mi use the 2nd sim s he insisted he nided it. The drawbck is dat bof sims can oni b under my name n i will receive the monthly bill of coz. Being the naive n ignorant gurl i was, i obviously didnt c the prob since he was my bf. The prob didnt come in wif the monthly bill payment fortunately, sure he delays payg mi once or twice, but i cud live wif dat. Wad is not so fortunate is dat when we broke up, his dad kept asking him to return the sim to mi coz he tinks since we r no longer affiliated in the BGR way, there's no reason y D shd HELP ME pay for the 2nd sim. So he returned mi the sim n there i was, stuck wif 2 lines. In fact, i was quite alrite wif gettg it bck frm him bcoz we r afterall separated n money is a sensitive issue, wad i m not alrite wif is dat later i found out D wento get yet another line for himslf. When he msged mi using the new line, i was suspicious oredi, n when i asked him abt it, he lied dat his army fren let him use it coz it has 1000 smses free per mth. Once he msged mi on a Sunday afternoon, so obviously he's at home n not in camp n his fren cant b kind until let him take home the sim rite? So again, i questioned him n he finally 'fessed up.

Then i got pissed liao la..duh rite?
1) The way his dad puts it was like i m forcing him 2 use the sim for mi, when in actual fact D was the one who insisted but i kept refusing coz i noe he's not veri well-off. D didnt bother to clarify btw. His dad is a horrible person may i add. Another blog perhaps.

2) He got himslf another sim after returng mi mine despite being fully aware dat i hv absolute 0 use for the 2nd one, wch means i hv to pay for the bleddy monthly subscription for the idle sim anyway.

3) He lied. Period.

4) When he was exposed, he had a "hahahaha" in his reply. Darn U.

5) I shdnt hv went ahead wif the plans, naively tinkg we wudnt brkup 2 yrs dwn the road.

So ladies n gentlemen, wadz the moral of the story? Dun b a dum-dum like Jay ok?

 
Monday, September 27, 2004
  against all odds.
The woes of being unemployed is bck to haunt mi. It subsided a while when i took up tutoring, a job i once tot i wud nvr do bcoz of my self-perceived inability to be patient wif kids. Of coz i succumbed to reality due to practical reasons...it's difficult to suddnly fall into rags when all along i hv been living somewhat extravagantly, at least by my standards.

I'm blue bcoz it's one of those days where pp around u r constantly enquiring abt ur status i.e. u must either be studying, wrking, married, retired or dead. Apparently i dun fall into any of such standard categories for i'm not studying, not wrking, not married, not retired n definitely not dead, altho stimes my mum's relentless comparisons wif the hairdressing auntie's kids make mi wish i rather be... The immediate sympathetic change in intonation when pp realise i'm still not making money is fucking irritating may i add...It's not like i'm on my knees tugging at their clothes begging for some food can?! I may not be earning big bucks, or anything for dat matter, but i definitely am not needing anybody's sympathy.

My bro juz forcefully told mi i m not sending enuff resumes out n dat i shd juz go for any jobs i qualify for, so dat i can get interviewing experiences. Ok fair enuff, but i wud rather try gettg jobs I LIKE 1st, before gg to interviews for jobs i m barely interested in, n den reject their offer if dey finally decide to use mi. It's a fucking waste of mine n others' time i tink. Of coz i mite b wrong n u may totally disagree wif mi, but it is dat way to mi u c? Bsides, i didnt wait so many months juz to do wad everybody did, i could hv jolly well done dat many freakin' months ago n do away wif all my dreams n aspirations for the larger good.

Mo told mi i shd juz try out other jobs s well, n dat most pp dun get to do wad dey like, dat's y dey say it's lucky if u like ur job (so i shd b contented wif any decent-paying job for now?). i guess wad he's tryg to tell mi is to quit being so picky. I understand his gd intentions of coz, but i rather try my hand at jobs dat interest mi 1st, b4 falling bck in line wif the rest of my peers if i m overcome by circumstances eventually. I must say it reli isn't ez walking the route i picked when half of the world xpects mi to be wrking oredi n the other half bz showering mi wif pity stares n sympathetic head bobbings all the time. I cud reli use more support n understanding now.

Tok abt fulfilling obligations. Juz realised another childhood fren, my age, is wedded n pregnant. Even the conversation at the kopi table juz now revolves ard marriage, future living arrangements n saving up for a flat. It got worse when dey started advising mi to start saving up now even if i hv to stay wif my in-laws coz i shd own a HDB s well so i can shuffle b/w the 2 houses n dey started analysing stg abt in dis way i cud make a profit after 5 yrs......of wch i stopped listening say abt 17 secs ago.

Mayb after all the whining, i mite wake up 2mr n embark on the same road millions hv walked before mi, mayb i'm just making a mountain out of a molehill n mayb i'm still dreaming of the impossible. But rite now, I wish time wud come to a stand-still so i cud juz walk to anywhere i wan n do anytg i like, n not hving to worry abt my future. I oso wish the notion of "Just bcoz everyone else is doing it, i shd be doing it too" wud stop disturbing mi. Coz it's frickin' daunting.




 
Thursday, September 23, 2004
  Reveal.
Hurhur..look wot i found in my folders? Yep! She's THE ONE.

My bro n his gf.
 
  Mysterious leggies.
At the risk of sounding perverse...GUESS WHOSE? Buahaha..Trademarked JJC shorts.

Sexy Legs.
 
  the aftermath of playing badminton.
Another toe casualty. I blame my NB shoes! The shoe is a lil' oversized so everytime i stretch, the longest toe will hit the inner walls of the shoe, lifting my not-veri-short-nail in the direction dat hurts (read: Away from Nature). So now it's abit bruised at the white part of the nail. The picture makes it look less serious tho.

My toe.
 
  bz day..
Juz got home not 2 long ago frm supper wif the NH kids n special guest, PC Lee, pity JL n Eliz didnt join us tho. Hope JL feels better frm the headache, n congrats on the unlimited supply of milk!! U lucky woman! N hope Eliz gets better luck wif the dryer nxt time! Hehe...

Finally met up wif Karen n the gurls for dinner. Another lucky woman may i add. Her diamond ring, diamond bracelet (wif 75 diamonds, REAL diamonds) n diamond earrings nearly blinded mi. I didnt ask where from, but Tiffany is highly suspicious in dis case. Yes, u heard mi quite rite there, T-I-F-F-A-N-Y. And on top of dat, she's the lucky one who gets to go to Japan for a yr n the half. Mo warned mi abt turning green, n i told him i hv completed the cycle oredi: turned green n decolorized. Seems like it's gonna b a vicious cycle afterall. If all dis stil dun justify my repeated applications to bcome Karen's parents' new daughter, i duno wad else it takes.

O anyway, i changed my notice board in my room 2day. Wiped away some dust n did some decorative wrk. Now it's all done up, hope ntg falls off. I bought Karen's farewell gift too, got her a beanie frm Wintertime, so perhaps she cud wear it during winter n tink of us? Hee..anyway it has a butterfly motif n patterned in pink, purple, white n maroon stripes. Tot it's pretty sweet so hopefully she likes it, if not gif it bck to mi? Hahaha..

Besides dat, I sent out my 2nd resume today! Hoho! So proud...*hopeful* Well, thx dear, for being Jay's Ahmad the whole day. Plus 300 points? Heh.

Argh, tuition 2mr! SHIT. Major SHIT. And a veri stinky one for dat matter. Brrr..
 
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
  a reason to mope.
Siggggh..juz found out 4 of my frenz went over to Japan for further studies, 2 more r goink over to Nagoya next week..1 left for Leeds laz nite wif her bf n 1 just left for New Mexico. My frens r leaving miiiiii~~~~

O gosh..i reli wanto b happy for dem...but at the same time, i cant help but feel totally inferior. If i was born wif a silver spoon in my mouth s well, i cud hv done dat too. If my parents r s rich, perhaps my life wud b totally different now...perhaps i wud hv less to worry about...perhaps it'll b ezier.

Now, who says family bckgrd doesnt matter? Who says meritocracy is the oni thing dat matters?

Anyway, there's a new category of men on my hate list: Whiney guys. I realise dey r almoz s bad s guys who two-time or hv xtra marital affairs. Yes! My point is...whiney guys ARE DAT bad! There's reli a difference b/w guys who r troubled n nid a fren to share the problem wif n guys who juz wans to whine mindlessly n totally degrade ur existence bcoz it seems like dey wan ntg more to do wif u other than a whining outlet. Recently there is dis fren who has totally been doink dat to mi, frm the impression of a cool, rocker dude, i totally demoted him to like D-Grade Men Category can!? He would say weird stuff to mi, like sensitive issues, n den leave mi feeling bizarre n messed up while he happily moves on onli to do the exact same thing again the nxt time round...WTF?! U cant do dat to pp juz bcoz u r frigging bored or sick can!? U actly nid to pay sumbody to listen to ur sick whinings u noe..dat's wad shrinks r for, u phoney!

So if u r a whiney guy, pls!!!! Stay away frm mi until u bcome a man.
 
Monday, September 20, 2004
  Culprit for my latest Hamtaro look.
Here it is! U can geddit at the food fest, $1.20 for a slim piece like dis. It's a product of Beard Papa n u can find the shop at Taka.

godsend
 
  Up close & personal.
A closer look on the prints of the wrapper..Those reli fine prints above "Tio Glutton" say "Cheese Cake Studio on the Back Street", so do the japanese prints.

godsend
 
  Bird's eye view.
Its true colors!! Not bread but cheese cake ok..

godsend
 
  Peek-a-boo!
The underside. There's a layer of crust beneath the cheese. Xcuse mi while i savour it..

godsend
 
  Now u c it, now u dun.
Gone. *Burp*

godsend
 
  racial harmony...not?
I finally noe y i'm so bleddy racist. I hereby declare i detest all freakin' ah nehs n i shall stand in contention to dem in progress, prosperity n poverty s long s i live. I HATE AH NEHS!!!

Anyway i juz realised i 4got how to recite our pledge n i mite hv 4gotten the anthem too..haha...dammit. I hv to ask a fren to recite it for mi. I better blog it down or stg b4 i 4get again.

We, the citizens of sg, pledge ourselves as 1 united ppl, regardless of race, language or religion, to build a democratic society, based on justice n equality so as to achieve happiness, prosperity n progress for our nation.

Mayb dat's y i'm such a frigging racist. Hoho..

O btw, 2mr's the last day to catch the food fest at Suntec. My bro bought some gd stuff bck. Shall take a pic of it 2mr n share the joy.~ Hurhur.. Seems like my belly is getting rounder n rounder by the day, i tink i can pass off s hamtaro now lo! I reli shd start swimming n jogging again...else, i probly wun b able to c my feet soon...mayb i shd go buy a hoola hoop~ Haha..i wud take a pic of my belly n blog it to spread joy but i'm worried it mite scare the daylights outta u kind pp instead so i figure it's better to juz kip my fren here to myslf la huh......any efficient,cheap n painless remedies to oust my fren? O n i nid remedies for pimply face too...Sighhh.....i'm so disfigured. *whines for another 5 hrs*

 
Friday, September 17, 2004
  somebody answered my prayers...
...or rather, my swearing. The corridor lights came bck on miraculously at 12.52 am in the midst of mi gg blind. Whoever took pity on mi, THK YEW!!!! *blows flying kisses*

Glad dat Sylvester made it. Hope he does well in the finals. A pity Shirin didnt get thru, tot she did quite a neat job. Dunch reli fancy Beverly, tink she abit drama mama, when she realised she got in, she was behaving like she won a pageant or stg...cept dat she was unglam-er, machiam like hei koo lydat..gd thing she didnt start crying again. *deadpans* N if u tink her version of Ain't Nobody was impressv, u shd chkout Latoya London's version. I noe la..different basis of comparison...N how cool izit to hv a family name "London" huh? Imagine their family wud collectvly b known s "The Londons"...beats "The Smiths", "The Johns" hands down ey? Heh..

Anyway, HL, i'm oso jobless..but i'm finally budging abit to find myslf one..so i noe hw u feel la huh...same boat same boat...cept dat u r more enthu than mi? Ok, make dat VERY much more..haha..I noticed there seems to b veri lil' demand for Arts grads hor? Especially Soci majors...Shit, abit late 2 realise now but like chose wrong major....Or izit juz mi? Hurhur...Bsides Soci, wad was ur 2nd major? Econs?
 
Thursday, September 16, 2004
  Cheer up!
Cos .. Sylvester is in? Happy 3 months :)
 
  bad mood.
My corridor lights are down again. FUG X a-Veri-Big-Number.

Just caught Singapore Idol and i'm rooting for Sylvester Sim. He's sweet.
 
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
  i finally did it...
The unthinkable.

I flew into a rage wif Sandeep, the tuition kid. He failed to do his journals for mi twice, not dat i didnt xpect it but i was hoping he wud surprise mi. He gv mi lame reasons like "I didnt hv time to buy" then he changed his mind and said "I only had money to buy one" after i stressed him by bellowing "The laz time i came was Sunday, 2day is Wednesday, ur sch reopens on Monday. U had 3 days to buy 2 exercise bks, is dat so hard??" Perhaps he was intimidated or wot..he changed his statement again n said "The bkshop didnt hv enuff.." And i said "The bkshop so small, until dey canot sell u 2 exercise bks?! U mean the whole sch wento buy exercise bks b4 u????" Den he juz lowered his head n kept quiet.

The trigger was his 11/31 spelling scores. He failed his fucking spelling test! When i asked him if he studied b4 the test, he said he did. I even gv him time to revise thru it on the spot...n he gv mi such nonsense!! He cudnt spell "Hesitant" on the previous spelling test n i made him spell it at number 31 and he spelt it s "Heciten" or the like despite the correction he did. I asked him again after marking his crap whether he studied or not n he insisted he did. I snapped. My voice was raised like 8 octaves n i tink i was so scary his sis popped her head to peep. And his granny came n offerred mi a drink right in the midst of my hollering, mayb so i cud scold him more or wot, so i had to utter "Thanx" under my breath.

Anyway the rough content of my scream was stg abt wif his present attitude he will not do well...does he tinks his mum is payg mi to fail him...y does his mum spends so much money on him n got him 2 tutors...whether he tinks 63/100 (his prelim score for English) is a proud score...asked him wad he had been doing for the last 3 days...y didnt he do my journal n study his spelling properly...just bcoz his stupid ticher didnt scold him when he didnt hand in his journal doesnt mean i will do the same...demanded an xplanation for 11/31...told him spelling is the stupidest mistake to make in an examination bcoz even if the answer is correct, wrong spellg wud stil make it wrong...told him my p5 kid could spell all the words (of coz i dun hv one) while he who is sitting for his psle which is less than 1 month away couldnt...

...then i tore up his spelling paper. I threw the new spelling list wif 23 words to him wif the previous 30 words n i told him "I dun care! U kip failing, it will kip accumulating. Learn it b4 the nxt time i c u...ALL 53 WORDS!" And he nodded.

For the rest of the tuition he was so stiff. Could c he was stressed when i asked him qns s he hesitated to answer even when he had it on the tip of his tongue. Sighz...i m reli not tiching material...I hv no idea how to handle kids. And i freaking hate scolding kids! Makes mi feel bad...so worried i mite accidentally scar him for life emotionally......but sometimes punishments r reli inevitable...

It has onli been my 3 rd session wif him n my fuse oredi snapped. Now i absolutely dread tuition...it dampens my mood juz tinkg abt it..bcoz i noe he will continue to gimme crap n i will hv to scold him again. How do tichers do it?!?! Do dey hv tolerance lvl of 8129732136 Fahrenheit? Stupid vicious cycle bound to happen again...And we tot kids learn faster.


 
  au revoir..
Hammy finally left us after enjoying his longevity for 3 yrs plus plus..Well, i'm not reli v sad bcoz i hv been mentally prepared for quite a while now, but he's reli a toughie. Despite being plagued wif weird illnesses for about half of his life, he hung on to his dear lil' life till the v end, not to mention his relentless determination to conquer the wheel almoz everyday, even when he cud barely walk or stand up straight. His inexorable spirit has been inspiring. And not even once had he bit mi or any frenz who held him. In all, he served his time well n has been a great pet.

We buried him in a gr8 spot yday evening; where he cud watch babes swim everyday n c pretty lightings at Chinese Garden. Like wot Mo said, the spot is gd bcoz it's 有山有水...Hope he's happy there.

Bye bye darling~ Mummy will miss u...



 
  Bof my boys r angels now...
Hammy wento join Jammy...

My boy.
 
Monday, September 13, 2004
  monday-not-so-blue.
13 th Sept is THE DAY, d day where mine n my immediate neighbor's units will b electricity-less frm 9 am to 5 pm. Yep, dat wud unfortunately mean i will hv no fan, no tv, no comp, no heater, no radio, no rice-cooker 4 the whole day...and the very conscientious workers started drilling n brking the walls at 8.15 am a.k.a the time dat mark my awakening for 13 th Sept 2004.

Well, i had intended to wake up at 8.30 am initially to shower so i cud bathe wif hot water coz wif the blackout, i will hv to shiver in the cold shower. And yet again, the very conscientious workers off the main switch at 8.50 am, 10 min b4 schedule. Thk gdness i was almoz done...

Alrite, to beat the boredom, i made sushi. Hurhur..whoa it was reli tedious manz..so many tgs to prepare!! I cudnt get the eggs i wanted tho...apparently the minimart dwnstairs doesnt carry it now..fyi, dey were selling it at 10 for $6, wch is totally 杀人放火 !

O after the sushi session, got a msg frm Ruz n KM, n soon i was on my way to mit dem. I saw soooo many eggs @ the Ramly Burger store at the JP pasar malam lo!!! Dey were like piling up in front of my face i swear i almoz wanted to kope a few when the uncle looked away for a minute...dammit! Who wud hv tot eggs wud bcome a luxurious delicacy 1 day...

Bsides markg abit of Sandeep's work, I spent the whole day 做没有-ing at Ruz's hall wif him n KM. We were so bo liao Ruz attempted to do a handstand n we found out dat KM has motor discoordination. Buahahaha...KM was so silly we almoz died laffing...Ask mi to demo wad he did nxt time..haha..Then we had dinner at Canteen 2 wif his neighbors, den i wento mit Mo.

O we wento feed stray cats! Hurhur..but seems like dey dun reli fancy tuna wif tartar sauce....haiyo! Starvg oredi still so picky! Anyway, i did stg horrendous juz now..haha..i took Mo's wallet (wif his acknowledgement) n put it in my bag n bof of us 4got abt it until he was at Bt Timah putting petrol after sending mi bck he realised he doesnt hv his wallet wif him...haha...in d end he had to detour bck to my place to geddit...thk gdness he didn't *eliz* mi for wastg his petrol/time/energy...hahaha...hehehe...hohoho...

Aiyo! Finally my corridor lights r bck! It was pitch black for abt 2 wks oredi..almoz wanted to complain to town council liaoz...kaoz! Duno wad the workers doink to our blk lo! Everyday drill drill here, konk konk there...so bleddy noisy n like not much improvments in our daily life oso. Especially after dat Ah Tiong worker fiddled wif my corridor fluorescent light 2 wks ago, it malfunctioned!! Grrr...n bcoz (my comp n tv r in the living room) i will switch off the lights to save electricity after say 11.30 pm, it was such a strain watchg tv or 2 use the comp @ nite s it was soooo freakin' glaring! Not to mention eerie..apparently oni the one outside my unit stopped working..Freakin' Hell!!! Mo asked the worker to fix it when he passed by s well, but all he got was some slang-ish Chinese wch sounds all too foreign to decipher. All in all, i m juz glad it's bck on again..i reli tot i was gg blind soon.

Now, i juz hope dey wud not start the ear-splitting drillings n hammerings in the wee hrs of the morning 2mr, n the day after..n the day after the day after..n the day after the day after the day after.......

*peaccccccccccce*
 
Sunday, September 12, 2004
  occupational hazard.
I duno y but i get agitated by crappy english alot. Mayb bcoz i'm tiching english now, mayb bcoz i'm dat anal, mayb bcoz i'm juz over-reacting. It's not the lack of vocab or the inability to use big words dat irks mi, but rather, the incapability to form a grammatically correct sentence n spell those elementary words properly, xcluding abbreviations.

It's not like my english is so abso-fab dat i can sit here n diss fellow frenz but i do pride myself in my ability to speak n write decent english at the veri least. I was thoroughly disturbed after reading a fellow fren's blog, of whom i shan't divulge for the sake of politically-correctness, probly cept dat it's a He. By virtue of his undergrad status, I wud at least expect him to b able to spell "Opposing" instead of "Oppositing" or "Honour" instead of "Houor"; i wud like to gif him the benefit of the doubt if not for the fact dat his "typos" wud stimes appear more than once in the blog, spelt in the exact same wrong way.

It is almoz too impossible to overlook his repeated absurd blunders when all of us r exposed to the same educational system all dis while. His incompetency made mi wonder if there is some hole or cave in Singapore a kid cud hide away in, frm the educational system, which i didnt noe abt coz if there is, i bet my arse he was there. Wad cud b worse than being lousy in stg n tinking "Actually i'm not dat bad", i quote him. I swear i was so tempted to tell him "Ya ur english is not dat bad, it's very, VERY bad...n do stg abt it sucker!" M i over-reacting? Do i sound like his mother? Is dis reli any of my bleddy business? Can i stop being so cynical? But, wad if i point out dat we wud all b categorized under the same big caption of "Graduates" in future, juxtaposing YOU n pple like HIM (read: Person with reli bad English, but who made it to Uni nvrthessless n tinks his weakness is not fatal therefore, indifferent to improving himself) in the face of reputation?

I wud b veri much less cheesed off if not for his accompanying huge ego. Not only does he tinks he is better than the rest of the population juz bcoz he made it to Uni via Poly, he dismisses anybody who tries to correct him. He wud reply wif an attitude dat reeks of scorn n sarcasm, totally dripping wif R-U-kidding-me and Y-shd-i-listen-to-u intonation. Tok abt self-denial.

Dun get all uptight nxt time u r speaking english wif mi juz bcoz of the holler. I'm not s arrogant s dis entry wud make mi sound like. I dun hv a fantastic command of english s well, so feel free to continue feeding mi wif Singlish n other funny puns. But i'm contemplating if i shd delete his blog off my list..it's a chore to decipher nonsensical sentences U noe.
 
Friday, September 10, 2004
  reality.
Mayb it's the night, mayb it's the darkness, mayb it's the pineapple i ate; i feel tad vulnerable now. So i figure it's time to whine. Whiney Counter for dis entry: 9.5/10. Not for the faint-hearted.

Juz s i tot i've seen enuff breeds of men n cringed way past my share at how dey behave, it kips coming n coming...but i should stress dat i'm not pin-pointing anybody in particular, more like the general population at large. Of coz u wud hv also guessed dat my enlightenment comes frm men around mi.

I hv to say it's reli amazing how the atrocity doesn't ends. I'm not suggestg all females r the like of Mother Theresa or Virgin Mary, OF COZ there r a fair share of incorrigible female breed out there, but still, it doesn't justify the obnoxious record some men r capable of creating.

Should couples b selfless in a r/s? Can mankind b selfless in the 1st place? Does it stil count s true love if, u r to go w/o a meal/sleep lesser/play lesser games, so s to make ur gf/bf a lil' happier, but didnt bcoz u forsee starvation/fatigue & lethargy/fun-deprivation if u reli went w/o a meal/sleep lesser/play lesser games respectively?

Again, does true love exists?

Is sex reli the onli thing in men's brain? I m aware dat men hv relatively more tetestorones than females but do the xtra hormones justify polygamy, mistresses, philandering? I've juz heard somebody saying "When men cheat, it's not bcoz dey've changed. It's bcoz dey've regained their old selves", wch simply means dat the monogamy (i.e. the same girl) is but a temporary novelty dey mit in their life, of wch dey can comfortably disregard later when novelty exceeds its stay. Juz s u tot u've found The One, trivialities pop up frm nowhere n xtinguish the puny beam of hope, n guess wot? U r bck to the same familiar square one once again. R all men reli the same...so similarly unreliable? I wonder how many disappointments will it take to leave a girl wretched enuff to gif up trying on men?

Mayb Adam n Eve weren't meant to co-exist in the 1st place. Mayb God made a mistake.


 
Thursday, September 09, 2004
  happy berfday gurlfren~
Hurhur..it's dat mad woman's berfday 2day so...HAPPY-ONE-STEP-CLOSER-TO-AUNTIEHOOD-WIF-ME-DAY!!! Buahaha...Well, altho i noe how "happening" ur day will b 2 day, nvrtheless, it's stil ur day n may u b hapi hapi everyday..dun let the taxi ah zek spoil ur day! U noe u shd hv told the cabbie it's ur bday 2day n ask for a half-price discount or stg...O!!! U shd go gamble...!! I reckon bdays r onli useful when it comes to gambling..buahaha...dun 4get to share ur fortune wif mi hor~ O and Hapi-one-step-closer-to-ah-zek-hood-u-r-alone-on-dat-Day to Chang s well!

I made lunch 2day. I cooked granny some noodz in soup n spirals' spagh 4 myslf. Cooking is fun if the end product is edible (let's juz say my tendency to concoct my own recipe does jeopardize the end product "abit"...) but i nvr fancy the washing up part. Hmm..i do wish i hv my own oven so i can bake pies, strudels, cookies, cakes n all sorts of other woohoolicious nonsense s and when i like. I tink i shd make some pizza bread later...

Waraoz..KM juz jio-ed mi to play Solitaire Showdown...My suckiness in Solitaire or rather, games in general aside, can't help but wonder how much more bo liao can he gets? Haha..i go n "duel" wif him liaoz..
 
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
  i'm alive!
And so is the boy.

After testing my bladder's limit for the past 2hrs, I finally made it home. I was seriously warned against using their toilet bcoz it can't b flushed so i wud hv to erm..pour water manually wif a bucket.

Hmm...i wud hv to sheepishly admit dat their close passage is indeed rather challenging. I was lost for words on a few occasions when i hv to xplain to him the difference b/w "Though" and "Although"; "When" and "If", and why should he use "Undeniable" instead of "Undenied"? And his spelling is somewhat horrible too, but at least he likes to read. I seriously doubt dat i can score full marks for their close passage anyway, I NID THE ANS SHEET. Shoot. I hope i dun appear incompetent. Did i mention his PSLE paper is on the 5th of coming Oct?? *acks!*

Speed remedies anyone?

Anyway, i've just received the news dat my childhood fren, SF, is engaged! Omygdness!! I m so shocked my jaw nearly touched the floor when Mel told mi abt it...Frickin' Hell!!! And apparently it's not a new news oredi..when i told my mum, her face instantly decolorized...gdness gracious! Wadz wif couples gettg married so early dis days!? Who says Sgreans dun wanto get married huh??? Speaking of wch, i hv dis fren's bro's weddg to attend on coming Children's Day and the groom is a mere 1 yr older than mi while his wife is younger than mi...wad the hell!?!?!?

I nid tranquilizers..dis is definitely overly agitating my sympathetic nervous system. ARGHH!
 
  tues nite wed morng..
I m a happy soul. Coz i've got Ben & Jerry's, a luxury joyous enuff to make mi shed a tear.

Anyway, juz got laz minute notice i hv 2 tich the kid 2mr...sheesh. My 1st attempt in giving tuition..frig..! I'm a bleddy ticher now!! *snorts* i sincerely hope i dun kill the kid. Or dun get killed by him.

Sia n i nearly drowned oursvles wif racist jokes abt the poor boy (NO, we didnt go to A HE's CORNER if u r wondering..shaddup! hahaha..), so crude we mite b held in contempt for demeaning our country's pledge for racial harmony. *LOL* Will blog abt my 1st tuition 2mr. I promise he will b alive when i leave him. Wish mi/him/us luck.

Some insurance company, AIA or Prudential, didnt reli catch, called. Dis lady, Shannon, wanted to meet mi for an intvw 2mr for the post of mgt trainee cum receptionist. After agreeing abruptly, obviously on impulse, i regretted. Dilly-dallied for a while b4 callg her to inform i've changed my mind. I can almoz imagine her face fallg juz by listeng to her tone dipping. Dammit. I hate being the bad guy. But i reli hv no desire to b a receptionist after like 14 yrs of miserable educatn u noe..i cud hv done dat 6yrs ago. So there we hv it, i rejected my veri 1 st intvw offer. I'm a star. haha..

O anyway, not dat i dun wanto blog everyday now. My comp is konking up n stimes blogger wrks n stimes it simply refuses to. Hopefully after Mo fidgeted wif my comp juz now, it wud b less konked up. I'll blog when blogger allows mi to.

p/s: stupid 70! V=IR IS Ohm's Law okkkkkkk.....y u say i'm wrong! Hate it when pp say i'm wrong when i'm rite..u swine!! grrr.
 
Sunday, September 05, 2004
  damsel in distress..
After wasting my whole precious saturday yday trying to figure out a better layout for my bleddy resume, here i am on a Sunday morning, STILL trying to figure out how to work dis stupid Word shit. Apparently the 1st draft wasn't impressive enough to my brother-cum-eagle-eyed-scrutinizer-of-my-bleddy-resume-man. Well, trying to get him to help is no ez feat fyi...he's either gg out wif his gf, watching wrestling, on the fone wif his gf, eating, watching a movie, playg bball, suffering frm dizzy spells, breaking a nail, bathing his sweaty armpits or bz scratching his ear...not much time left for his poor baby sister if u r ermm...gd in ur arithmetics.

Juz s i tot things r s worse s it can get, my nanny appeared at my drstep in the indecent hrs of dis morning...(read: SUNDAY+MORNING=SUNDAY MORNING!!! DUh..) Being a nocturnal creature when the rest of the world seem to prefer being early birds is abt the huuuge-est form of cruelty EVER. After being startled awake by her bellows made possible by her ever-so powerful lungs (so powerful i cud hear her behind closed drs n in the midst of deep sleep...), i was left wif zero choice but to tear my forlorn body away frm my paradise i.e. Bed, at 10.15 AM, oni to b repayed by like a generation of killer lines. Some samples: "O! U finally woke up!", "Sleep until so good ah? Until I come u oso duno?" and "I tot u r going to sleep until tonight..." But Xcuse mi? I dun slp at 9 pm everynite n wake up at 6 am every morning u noe?! The numbers 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 on the clock r only meaningful to mi when it applies to the other half of the day okkk...If u tink i probly shd wake up earlier/sleep earlier/sleep lesser, then i regret (not..!) informing u...we can't b frenz anymore.

ARRrrrRR..!
 
Saturday, September 04, 2004
  Room-warming Gift?
Eliz, dis is for You. Buahaha...

Kitty @ Clementi Rubbish Chute.
 
  Intolerable Cuteness.
Dis lil' sweetie was caught mewing incessantly n scrawling around for food or mayb for its mummy?It's probly oni s big s my hand...awww...

Kitty @ Clementi Rubbish Chute.
 
  blee..blee..blee..bloo..bloo..bloo..
Blogger was down yday. Yahoo mail n hotmail s well. Computer konking up but Norton Virus said "0 files infected". Duno wots wrong still, net surfing's still retarded but at least blogger's up.

Wento take foto for resume juz now, due in 3 days time. It better b nice. Costed $16......and a button frm my blouse, the one protectg my girls frm being public displays. Had to hug my handbag all the way home to prevent expose. Saw a kitten on way home near rubbish chute. So frail, tiny n cute i almoz wanted to bring it home if not for the small piece of poo sticking in its butt. N Mo didnt drive 2day, so i cudnt bring it on sbs s well. Fug. Felt absolutely wretched after walkg away frm it lydat.

Caught fireworks frm my house yday evening. Pretty sight it is. Chinese Garden's lightings r up for Lantern Festival. Check it out if u r feeling rich.
 
Thursday, September 02, 2004
  juz another day.
In the midst of sacrificing 200+ smses to inform everybody in my fonebook i've changed hp number again, i received like 20++ replies, some asking who m i coz dey lost their fones n therefore their contacts (i wud like 2 bliv dat's true 2...Else, it wud oni mean dey've deliberately took pains to scroll to my name n selected the "Delete" function.......), others asking mi y there's only a change in the last digit n some others asking how hv i been n stuff. One of whom surprised mi the most was the rather sweet reply frm Vincent, yep dat NH Vincent. I must say i'm quite flattered he stil kips my number n it's reli unlike him to b dat totful? Hahaha...(Remind mi not to let him noe i hv a blog..) It has been soooo long since i last saw him, wonder if he's still wif Sufen? I'll ask him n update. Heh. O..! Wch reminds mi, i stil hv an overdue kopi session wif Edwin..mayb can mit dem 2gther 1 of dis days eh..? We'll see.

O i wento chkout the p6 syllabus for Science, English n Maths at Popular early evening 2day n i must say i'm dead-er than a dead duck. The fact dat i was reli a non-studious kid reli contributed to the unfamiliarity of their Science content some 10 yrs later. Do hydrilla, spores and jointed legs ring any bell to u? If u r like "O gawwwwd..", congratz, u r on the same side of the line wif mi. On top of dat, i hv clean forgotten how to draw the bleddy modal for Maths problem sums. For like a whole 10 min, Mo attempted to xplain how to draw the modal for a sum regarding the length of ropes, wif some fractions like 1/3 and 3/8 , ermmmz...in vain. I noe how to solve the sum but i hv no frigging idea how to draw the reli unnecessary modal, in my opinion. Anyway, i recalled its uselessness when i did my p6 maths, s evident frm the fact dat instd of supposing to help us visualize the sum better, sumhow i was alwaz penalized for not drawg it rite even tho my ans was rite. So, i hate(d) it. Period.

So, hopefully the kid's mother wudnt mind mi juz tiching the kid English...At least i was less stumped by Functional Writing than Chlorophyll and Prime Numbers.
 
*scratches belly & yawns*

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