Wednesday, September 15, 2004
i finally did it...
The unthinkable. 
I flew into a rage wif Sandeep, the tuition kid. He failed to do his journals for mi twice, not dat i didnt xpect it but i was hoping he wud surprise mi. He gv mi lame reasons like "I didnt hv time to buy" then he changed his mind and said "I only had money to buy one" after i stressed him by bellowing "The laz time i came was Sunday, 2day is Wednesday, ur sch reopens on Monday. U had 3 days to buy 2 exercise bks, is dat so hard??" Perhaps he was intimidated or wot..he changed his statement again n said "The bkshop didnt hv enuff.." And i said "The bkshop so small, until dey canot sell u 2 exercise bks?! U mean the whole sch wento buy exercise bks b4 u????" Den he juz lowered his head n kept quiet.
The trigger was his 11/31 spelling scores. He failed his fucking spelling test! When i asked him if he studied b4 the test, he said he did. I even gv him time to revise thru it on the spot...n he gv mi such nonsense!! He cudnt spell "Hesitant" on the previous spelling test n i made him spell it at number 31 and he spelt it s "Heciten" or the like despite the correction he did. I asked him again after marking his crap whether he studied or not n he insisted he did. I snapped. My voice was raised like 8 octaves n i tink i was so scary his sis popped her head to peep. And his granny came n offerred mi a drink right in the midst of my hollering, mayb so i cud scold him more or wot, so i had to utter "Thanx" under my breath.
Anyway the rough content of my scream was stg abt wif his present attitude he will not do well...does he tinks his mum is payg mi to fail him...y does his mum spends so much money on him n got him 2 tutors...whether he tinks 63/100 (his prelim score for English) is a proud score...asked him wad he had been doing for the last 3 days...y didnt he do my journal n study his spelling properly...just bcoz his stupid ticher didnt scold him when he didnt hand in his journal doesnt mean i will do the same...demanded an xplanation for 11/31...told him spelling is the stupidest mistake to make in an examination bcoz even if the answer is correct, wrong spellg wud stil make it wrong...told him my p5 kid could spell all the words (of coz i dun hv one) while he who is sitting for his psle which is less than 1 month away couldnt...
...then i tore up his spelling paper. I threw the new spelling list wif 23 words to him wif the previous 30 words n i told him "I dun care! U kip failing, it will kip accumulating. Learn it b4 the nxt time i c u...ALL 53 WORDS!" And he nodded.
For the rest of the tuition he was so stiff. Could c he was stressed when i asked him qns s he hesitated to answer even when he had it on the tip of his tongue. Sighz...i m reli not tiching material...I hv no idea how to handle kids. And i freaking hate scolding kids! Makes mi feel bad...so worried i mite accidentally scar him for life emotionally......but sometimes punishments r reli inevitable...
It has onli been my 3 rd session wif him n my fuse oredi snapped. Now i absolutely dread tuition...it dampens my mood juz tinkg abt it..bcoz i noe he will continue to gimme crap n i will hv to scold him again. How do tichers do it?!?! Do dey hv tolerance lvl of 8129732136 Fahrenheit? Stupid vicious cycle bound to happen again...And we tot kids learn faster.
¶ J poppycocked at 9:23:00 PM
I flew into a rage wif Sandeep, the tuition kid. He failed to do his journals for mi twice, not dat i didnt xpect it but i was hoping he wud surprise mi. He gv mi lame reasons like "I didnt hv time to buy" then he changed his mind and said "I only had money to buy one" after i stressed him by bellowing "The laz time i came was Sunday, 2day is Wednesday, ur sch reopens on Monday. U had 3 days to buy 2 exercise bks, is dat so hard??" Perhaps he was intimidated or wot..he changed his statement again n said "The bkshop didnt hv enuff.." And i said "The bkshop so small, until dey canot sell u 2 exercise bks?! U mean the whole sch wento buy exercise bks b4 u????" Den he juz lowered his head n kept quiet.
The trigger was his 11/31 spelling scores. He failed his fucking spelling test! When i asked him if he studied b4 the test, he said he did. I even gv him time to revise thru it on the spot...n he gv mi such nonsense!! He cudnt spell "Hesitant" on the previous spelling test n i made him spell it at number 31 and he spelt it s "Heciten" or the like despite the correction he did. I asked him again after marking his crap whether he studied or not n he insisted he did. I snapped. My voice was raised like 8 octaves n i tink i was so scary his sis popped her head to peep. And his granny came n offerred mi a drink right in the midst of my hollering, mayb so i cud scold him more or wot, so i had to utter "Thanx" under my breath.
Anyway the rough content of my scream was stg abt wif his present attitude he will not do well...does he tinks his mum is payg mi to fail him...y does his mum spends so much money on him n got him 2 tutors...whether he tinks 63/100 (his prelim score for English) is a proud score...asked him wad he had been doing for the last 3 days...y didnt he do my journal n study his spelling properly...just bcoz his stupid ticher didnt scold him when he didnt hand in his journal doesnt mean i will do the same...demanded an xplanation for 11/31...told him spelling is the stupidest mistake to make in an examination bcoz even if the answer is correct, wrong spellg wud stil make it wrong...told him my p5 kid could spell all the words (of coz i dun hv one) while he who is sitting for his psle which is less than 1 month away couldnt...
...then i tore up his spelling paper. I threw the new spelling list wif 23 words to him wif the previous 30 words n i told him "I dun care! U kip failing, it will kip accumulating. Learn it b4 the nxt time i c u...ALL 53 WORDS!" And he nodded.
For the rest of the tuition he was so stiff. Could c he was stressed when i asked him qns s he hesitated to answer even when he had it on the tip of his tongue. Sighz...i m reli not tiching material...I hv no idea how to handle kids. And i freaking hate scolding kids! Makes mi feel bad...so worried i mite accidentally scar him for life emotionally......but sometimes punishments r reli inevitable...
It has onli been my 3 rd session wif him n my fuse oredi snapped. Now i absolutely dread tuition...it dampens my mood juz tinkg abt it..bcoz i noe he will continue to gimme crap n i will hv to scold him again. How do tichers do it?!?! Do dey hv tolerance lvl of 8129732136 Fahrenheit? Stupid vicious cycle bound to happen again...And we tot kids learn faster.
¶ J poppycocked at 9:23:00 PM