Trauma I can't even begin to recall, how many times in life i have been caught in a dilemma, struggling to make a decision at crossroads.

I admit i have never been quite a resolute person, albeit hoping to be more of one. It's quite a torture really, wanting me to make up my mind.

I have this habit of taking the bus to Lakeside MRT station every morning to catch the train, despite not staying dat far away from Chinese Garden MRT station. It's purely half out of laziness, half out of not wanting to perspire early morning.

And given time allowance, i will embark on the reverse direction from my destination & take the train to Boon Lay so that after everyone alights, i can get a seat to snooze thruout the journey.

Just dis morning, the train towards Pasir Ris approached while i was still on the escalator but as usual, i wasn't in a hurry (tell mi y pp actly bother to run after buses & trains like a looney...Zzz..) so i missed dat one. Then the MRT towards Boon Lay arrived shortly, but while waiting for it to stop, from afar i spotted another approaching train towards Pasir Ris, which was relatively instant, considering the lapse from the previous train.

At dis point in time, i was already trying to decide which side of the train to take; Option A) Hop onto the stopped train in front of u going towards Boon Lay & get a seat to snooze after everyone alights, Option B) Wait for approaching train going towards Pasir Ris & not board train towards Boon Lay, which will save commuting time, but might be seat-less.

The catch is, u duno if the train towards Pasir Ris will just be one of those "test-train" (reli, tel mi wad r the chances manz..) & if it's gonna just zoom past the station, not allowing passengers to board, i would have given up the trains on both sides, incurring more waiting time.

In the end i chose to board the train towards Boon Lay, just in case.

While waiting for the door to close, the opposite sides' train arrived & not only is it NOT a test train, it's also relatively empty, meaning i could have jolly well cut commuting time AND gotten a seat to snooze if i have decided to take my chances waiting for the approaching one.

Which means, my decision to board train towards Boon Lay had not only been incorrect, (since i should have chosen Option B), but was potentially worse than an Option C, which is to run after arriving train when i was still on the escalator. At least people who did, got the benefit of reaching their destination earlier (not dat i was looking forward to reaching office earlier).

I think small matters like these are really reflective of the person in real. So many a times, when I am faced with a difficult situation, I am so afraid of taking the plunge, constantly worrying about the opportunity cost & the consequences, that in the end, i got the best out of nothing.

If everyone has a detrimental trait to their personality, i guess indecisiveness would be mine.  ¶ J poppycocked at 12:51:00 PM