Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Sighs.
When the rules get from dumb to dumber, it makes the existing turmoil worse. The feelings intensified, towards the downside no less, when u remember that rules are the makings of some foolish human beings.
Just 2 days ago, early this week, i was sent to the grilling room with somebody fearful. Had it not been for an unexpected visitor, it looked like she had no intentions of releasing me.
The event was in expectations, although not in anticipation. It was brought upon by a final decision to call it quits, relayed to my immediate boss some 2 Fridays ago.
After some 2.5hours of one-way communication, as usual, the fearful being left me dumbfounded with her aggressive articulation & rhetorics. I would have been more vocal under normal circumstances, but when i m binded by the need to be diplomatic, tactful & sane, it's best to shut my trap, leaving me with the only possibility of appearing like a block of wood, i'm 'fraid.
Part in awe i must admit, and I've gotto stop thinking that higher authorities are superhumans.
I have to see her again next week & tell her more of what i intend to do next, in life, and in the organization. Basically, she wans to hear of my plans. In clear, precise milestones.
Honestly, I couldn't think of any route that will make mi jump in glee, both within & externally. It has been 2 days & i m still confused. Maybe i don't have an answer afterall. Even if i was given n more weeks, most probably i would still be answer-less.
Everyday i just find myself staring at the sea from this enclosed space, thinking to myself i really belong out there.
It's a great honour someone high up is spending a crucial 2.5hours with a minute fry like me, it makes me feel valued (even if it's part of the conspiracy).
But really, what if my only goal in life for now is to take a break?
Maybe all i need/ wanto do now is to retreat from this war.
Perhaps the path will be clearer when the mind is clearer. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:09:00 AM
Just 2 days ago, early this week, i was sent to the grilling room with somebody fearful. Had it not been for an unexpected visitor, it looked like she had no intentions of releasing me.
The event was in expectations, although not in anticipation. It was brought upon by a final decision to call it quits, relayed to my immediate boss some 2 Fridays ago.
After some 2.5hours of one-way communication, as usual, the fearful being left me dumbfounded with her aggressive articulation & rhetorics. I would have been more vocal under normal circumstances, but when i m binded by the need to be diplomatic, tactful & sane, it's best to shut my trap, leaving me with the only possibility of appearing like a block of wood, i'm 'fraid.
Part in awe i must admit, and I've gotto stop thinking that higher authorities are superhumans.
I have to see her again next week & tell her more of what i intend to do next, in life, and in the organization. Basically, she wans to hear of my plans. In clear, precise milestones.
Honestly, I couldn't think of any route that will make mi jump in glee, both within & externally. It has been 2 days & i m still confused. Maybe i don't have an answer afterall. Even if i was given n more weeks, most probably i would still be answer-less.
Everyday i just find myself staring at the sea from this enclosed space, thinking to myself i really belong out there.
It's a great honour someone high up is spending a crucial 2.5hours with a minute fry like me, it makes me feel valued (even if it's part of the conspiracy).
But really, what if my only goal in life for now is to take a break?
Maybe all i need/ wanto do now is to retreat from this war.
Perhaps the path will be clearer when the mind is clearer. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:09:00 AM