Wednesday, August 03, 2005
A Parody.
U stand on top of the mountain, looking down at all earthly issues from a bird's eye point of view, tinking to urself nothing can escape ur eyes. U thought there is nothing u have not seen or heard, bcoz everything is beneath ur feet, so nothing could ever happen & make u lose ur cool.
But little do u noe dat u could be missing something happening just under ur nose everyday. It has alwaz been there, but u just dun seem to notice or realise. U dun smell it taking place & by the time u do, it probly wud have taken u off guard.
U noe u wud be happier somewhere else, doing something else & with somebody else. But here u r, hovering on the same spot, tracing ur path in circles & returning to where u started from periodically, only to realise again u wud be happier somewhere else, doing something else & with somebody else.
U stumble & stumble, picking urself up everytime, reminding urself not to go through the same ordeal again, but before u know it, u stumble again, oni to realise u nvr did learn ur mistakes the previous time. Probly bcoz the wound wasn't deep enuff to create an impression. Probly bcoz it was a predisposition. Probly bcoz U noe u r not strong enuff to thread on unknown waters.
Just as U tot somebody is taking u seriously, something happens & make u take 2 steps back & reassess the situation again, not realising dat the 2 steps taken r just an accumulation to the previous 2-steps taken backwards.
U back off & back off, further & further away from the crowd, until u realise u r standing on the edge, alone. Just s u were about to fall, it suddenly dawned upon u, u r not merely standing alone, but u have walked alone as well, to where u stood alone now.
Sometimes ur soul is tired, sick of all the pretence & mockery. U wanto sit down & take a big break from everything else, only to find out dat ur time has not come yet. Bcoz looking to ur left, looking to ur right, both the spaces still seem empty. People have came, people have gone. But not one remains.
U have allowed others to see U strong, see U self-absorbed. But have u lost sight of ur fragility? Will dey noe sometimes U will also nid a good, reliable shoulder to lean on? U let ur gear go on & on, n delude urslf into believing dat nothing can hurt U anymore, but still, it does, no matter how U try to disallow the consequences to come near U. Sometimes U wish U were more resolute & stronger than the sum of ur might now, but sometimes, the stronger U wish U r, the more vulnerable a plight U put urself in.
The faces U see on the streets, some with pain in their eyes, some with comfort & some with vacancies. How many of those who pass U make the same mistakes as u do, how many nvr need to take the routes U took?
All of U r gamblers. Chronic ones. Both in life & love. Everyday U decide, choose & pick, despite not knowing wad outcomes the other alternative dat u didnt choose may lead to. U make a call on an alternative, despite not being 101% sure wad good it may bring U. Some people win, some people lose. Some people keep winning, the others keep losing.
Which kind r U? ¶ J poppycocked at 9:13:00 PM
But little do u noe dat u could be missing something happening just under ur nose everyday. It has alwaz been there, but u just dun seem to notice or realise. U dun smell it taking place & by the time u do, it probly wud have taken u off guard.
U noe u wud be happier somewhere else, doing something else & with somebody else. But here u r, hovering on the same spot, tracing ur path in circles & returning to where u started from periodically, only to realise again u wud be happier somewhere else, doing something else & with somebody else.
U stumble & stumble, picking urself up everytime, reminding urself not to go through the same ordeal again, but before u know it, u stumble again, oni to realise u nvr did learn ur mistakes the previous time. Probly bcoz the wound wasn't deep enuff to create an impression. Probly bcoz it was a predisposition. Probly bcoz U noe u r not strong enuff to thread on unknown waters.
Just as U tot somebody is taking u seriously, something happens & make u take 2 steps back & reassess the situation again, not realising dat the 2 steps taken r just an accumulation to the previous 2-steps taken backwards.
U back off & back off, further & further away from the crowd, until u realise u r standing on the edge, alone. Just s u were about to fall, it suddenly dawned upon u, u r not merely standing alone, but u have walked alone as well, to where u stood alone now.
Sometimes ur soul is tired, sick of all the pretence & mockery. U wanto sit down & take a big break from everything else, only to find out dat ur time has not come yet. Bcoz looking to ur left, looking to ur right, both the spaces still seem empty. People have came, people have gone. But not one remains.
U have allowed others to see U strong, see U self-absorbed. But have u lost sight of ur fragility? Will dey noe sometimes U will also nid a good, reliable shoulder to lean on? U let ur gear go on & on, n delude urslf into believing dat nothing can hurt U anymore, but still, it does, no matter how U try to disallow the consequences to come near U. Sometimes U wish U were more resolute & stronger than the sum of ur might now, but sometimes, the stronger U wish U r, the more vulnerable a plight U put urself in.
The faces U see on the streets, some with pain in their eyes, some with comfort & some with vacancies. How many of those who pass U make the same mistakes as u do, how many nvr need to take the routes U took?
All of U r gamblers. Chronic ones. Both in life & love. Everyday U decide, choose & pick, despite not knowing wad outcomes the other alternative dat u didnt choose may lead to. U make a call on an alternative, despite not being 101% sure wad good it may bring U. Some people win, some people lose. Some people keep winning, the others keep losing.
Which kind r U? ¶ J poppycocked at 9:13:00 PM