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Sunday, May 29, 2005
Screwed Up.
Life is such a bitch.
It reli is.
And dey are all the same.
Dey reli are. ¶ J poppycocked at 11:07:00 PM
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It reli is.
And dey are all the same.
Dey reli are. ¶ J poppycocked at 11:07:00 PM
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
Bored.
It's so hard to say No when people plead wif mi. I'm such a weakling.
Bcoz Ah Lian is sick, & Ah Beng wasnt around when the pleading was done, & The Whiney One & The Zoot Zoot One bought ferry tix to Batam, i was the next available target to arrow.
There goes my long weekN.
I hate being arrowed. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:46:00 AM
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Bcoz Ah Lian is sick, & Ah Beng wasnt around when the pleading was done, & The Whiney One & The Zoot Zoot One bought ferry tix to Batam, i was the next available target to arrow.
There goes my long weekN.
I hate being arrowed. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:46:00 AM
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Thursday, May 12, 2005
Feeling Peaceful.
After going thru my fair bit of emotional rollercoaster laz nite, i m actly feeling rather calm rite at dis moment. Not drained, but calm.
After a good time-alone, I realise dat a temporary compromise is far less worthy as a solution than i hv ever imagined.
I realise dat i still hate the things i used to hate, wif an exception of a few rare items notwithstanding, but at least i noe i hv tried NOT hating it, even if i failed.
The key point is i've tried.
Dun stay wif somebody who is not worth ur time or who doesn't bother to noe U.
Communication is prime.
It is good to thrash things out, reli.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I dun feel so...ummm...constipated.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I feel like I hv said my piece & done my time.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I noe I hv allowed the other party to noe how the situation is like on my side & consequently reducing my sufferings in silence.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I noe I hv tried my best to.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, I noe I will not live my life in vain & looking back 40 years later, I wud not be wondering how the situation will be if I hv lifted my courage to thrash things out 40 years ago.
Even if it did not salvage anything at all the end of the day, I noe I wud have one less I-shud-haves to regret about.
Even if it did not, it did it for me. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:23:00 PM
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After a good time-alone, I realise dat a temporary compromise is far less worthy as a solution than i hv ever imagined.
I realise dat i still hate the things i used to hate, wif an exception of a few rare items notwithstanding, but at least i noe i hv tried NOT hating it, even if i failed.
The key point is i've tried.
Dun stay wif somebody who is not worth ur time or who doesn't bother to noe U.
Communication is prime.
It is good to thrash things out, reli.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I dun feel so...ummm...constipated.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I feel like I hv said my piece & done my time.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I noe I hv allowed the other party to noe how the situation is like on my side & consequently reducing my sufferings in silence.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, at least I noe I hv tried my best to.
Even if it did not salvage the situation, I noe I will not live my life in vain & looking back 40 years later, I wud not be wondering how the situation will be if I hv lifted my courage to thrash things out 40 years ago.
Even if it did not salvage anything at all the end of the day, I noe I wud have one less I-shud-haves to regret about.
Even if it did not, it did it for me. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:23:00 PM
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Feeling Puny.
I spent the day at M.O today. Management Office dat is.
Coincidentally, it is rite smacked in the midst of our island's hub i.e. Orchard.
It was a nice change. Taking 502 to town & reaching early enuff to catch a sight of the peace & quiet Orchard rarely exudes. Well, den again, i was there at an unearthly hour.
But it was a good anticipation. Having a change of environment, even for oni 1 day.
Coz the group is small, we get to tok alot. It was nice toking to HF & Del especially.
When i stepped out of the building in the evening, it was at its usual bustle.
There were soooo many people it makes U wonder where did all dis people come from!? Singapore got so much land to build homes for everybody meh?!
And so many of dem were threading along so hastily. Where r dey all rushing to??
I feel small among the crowd as i stood alone in the middle of the busy district.
Is it just me? ¶ J poppycocked at 9:46:00 PM
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Coincidentally, it is rite smacked in the midst of our island's hub i.e. Orchard.
It was a nice change. Taking 502 to town & reaching early enuff to catch a sight of the peace & quiet Orchard rarely exudes. Well, den again, i was there at an unearthly hour.
But it was a good anticipation. Having a change of environment, even for oni 1 day.
Coz the group is small, we get to tok alot. It was nice toking to HF & Del especially.
When i stepped out of the building in the evening, it was at its usual bustle.
There were soooo many people it makes U wonder where did all dis people come from!? Singapore got so much land to build homes for everybody meh?!
And so many of dem were threading along so hastily. Where r dey all rushing to??
I feel small among the crowd as i stood alone in the middle of the busy district.
Is it just me? ¶ J poppycocked at 9:46:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005
I have not been happier for a fren..
I say "Some journeys are meant to be walked alone. We reli canot control changes."
I must say I agree wif wot was said. Sometimes the changes in a person are so gradual it is scary to realise dey r changing, but yet, the changes are not gradual enuff to escape those who feel.
But anyhow, dis entry isnt about mi.
Old time frens r still the best. No doubt about dat.
I just got a msg from a pri sch buddy informing mi dat she just gave birth to a baby girl.
I dun remember smiling so heartily for a long time now. I m so hapi for her.
I tink i cud feel her bliss even tho the dropped msg was short.
We have all moved on, lost contact at some point of time & 4get each other's existence once in a while, but honestly, i m glad dat at the end of the day, we still remember one another coz dis group of ours was once inseparable.
Junwen called mi immediately when he got my msg & we chatted for a while. Even tho he is trapped in Tekong, i could feel his shock all the way from the off-shores to my Jurong residence.
Haha...But it is so nice to hear his voice again.
I so wanto mit up wif all of dem again. Sometime soon.
I can't wait. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:21:00 PM
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I must say I agree wif wot was said. Sometimes the changes in a person are so gradual it is scary to realise dey r changing, but yet, the changes are not gradual enuff to escape those who feel.
But anyhow, dis entry isnt about mi.
Old time frens r still the best. No doubt about dat.
I just got a msg from a pri sch buddy informing mi dat she just gave birth to a baby girl.
I dun remember smiling so heartily for a long time now. I m so hapi for her.
I tink i cud feel her bliss even tho the dropped msg was short.
We have all moved on, lost contact at some point of time & 4get each other's existence once in a while, but honestly, i m glad dat at the end of the day, we still remember one another coz dis group of ours was once inseparable.
Junwen called mi immediately when he got my msg & we chatted for a while. Even tho he is trapped in Tekong, i could feel his shock all the way from the off-shores to my Jurong residence.
Haha...But it is so nice to hear his voice again.
I so wanto mit up wif all of dem again. Sometime soon.
I can't wait. ¶ J poppycocked at 10:21:00 PM
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Monday, May 09, 2005
O yah!
And i forgot i must say dis..duno wot happened to dat Bubblemunche! Gawd..hope he's fine...for all we noe, maybe Boon Lay Girl filled up the hollow in his life.
Wotever the case, let's wish him in the best of everything anyhow. Cheers. ¶ J poppycocked at 11:26:00 PM
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Wotever the case, let's wish him in the best of everything anyhow. Cheers. ¶ J poppycocked at 11:26:00 PM
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Walking on Sunshine...errr....Not?
Snorty Brother Joe told mi he can see a black cloud & a dark aura on & around mi respectively laz nite when we set off to Vic's house after the Mother's Day dinner at some random & funky eatery in some big carpark. He then proceeded to analyse y.
He attributed it to something along the lines of certain complimentaries but oso said dat is oso y i m such an unhappy arse. Sometimes simplicity is such a bliss i tell u.
Dis morning, I woke up wif "Resignation" imprinted across my head like paint sprawled loosely on the wall. I've nvr been more miserable.
Mummy scorned the irony of which. She laffed too. So did Snorty Brother Joe. Bcoz i find pp jobs. But i cudnt find myslf something dat can make mi not frown.
So many things happen in a single day of my everyday. But at the end of the day, there is none of which dat makes mi wanto tok about it.
On the originally good Saturday noon, we were made to attend dis compulsory motivational talk by famous management consultant, Dr Andrew Goh. (so much for being motivational...a compulsory tok on a Saturday afternoon?! Dey must hv nuts for brains...)
Well, basically, the gist of the talk is to make us realise how to achieve or inch towards our individual goals.
I recalled staring at my paper blankly.
Den i recalled scribbling something dat reads something like "My goal is to find a goal in life." And den i proceeded on to doodle mindlessly.
Dr Goh den asked us to rank the possibility of achieving the goal, wif scale 10 being the most probable.
I did a 5-ver.
I mean...who noes if i wud or wud not find my goal in life rite?!
Den he said people who ranked it 5, 6 or 7 nid to scale down the goal. For eg, if ur goal is to earn a million dollars in 10 years & u rank it having a possibility of 5, it wud hover around like 50-50, so y not reduce ur goal to like $500, 000 so dat the possibility of getting there cud be up to a probability of 75% or stg lydat. U get?
Den, i stared blankly at wot i scribbled again.
How to scale down "finding a goal in life"?!?
Willis, who was sitting nxt to mi, peered over to peep at wot i wrote & when she saw wad she saw on my paper, she looked at mi, almoz earnestly, shook her head in dismay & uttered the most sympathetic "So sad" i've ever heard, wif no tinge of sarcasm intended.
I tink she mite be genuinely feeling sad for mi....ya' tink?
I wonder wad i shud be when i grow up. Any sane ideas? ¶ J poppycocked at 10:26:00 PM
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He attributed it to something along the lines of certain complimentaries but oso said dat is oso y i m such an unhappy arse. Sometimes simplicity is such a bliss i tell u.
Dis morning, I woke up wif "Resignation" imprinted across my head like paint sprawled loosely on the wall. I've nvr been more miserable.
Mummy scorned the irony of which. She laffed too. So did Snorty Brother Joe. Bcoz i find pp jobs. But i cudnt find myslf something dat can make mi not frown.
So many things happen in a single day of my everyday. But at the end of the day, there is none of which dat makes mi wanto tok about it.
On the originally good Saturday noon, we were made to attend dis compulsory motivational talk by famous management consultant, Dr Andrew Goh. (so much for being motivational...a compulsory tok on a Saturday afternoon?! Dey must hv nuts for brains...)
Well, basically, the gist of the talk is to make us realise how to achieve or inch towards our individual goals.
I recalled staring at my paper blankly.
Den i recalled scribbling something dat reads something like "My goal is to find a goal in life." And den i proceeded on to doodle mindlessly.
Dr Goh den asked us to rank the possibility of achieving the goal, wif scale 10 being the most probable.
I did a 5-ver.
I mean...who noes if i wud or wud not find my goal in life rite?!
Den he said people who ranked it 5, 6 or 7 nid to scale down the goal. For eg, if ur goal is to earn a million dollars in 10 years & u rank it having a possibility of 5, it wud hover around like 50-50, so y not reduce ur goal to like $500, 000 so dat the possibility of getting there cud be up to a probability of 75% or stg lydat. U get?
Den, i stared blankly at wot i scribbled again.
How to scale down "finding a goal in life"?!?
Willis, who was sitting nxt to mi, peered over to peep at wot i wrote & when she saw wad she saw on my paper, she looked at mi, almoz earnestly, shook her head in dismay & uttered the most sympathetic "So sad" i've ever heard, wif no tinge of sarcasm intended.
I tink she mite be genuinely feeling sad for mi....ya' tink?
I wonder wad i shud be when i grow up. Any sane ideas? ¶ J poppycocked at 10:26:00 PM
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Monday, May 02, 2005
Sunday. Good or No Good?
I went shyapping wif GF2 today & our battling field was Bugis. Good.
It was jam-packed wif the rest of the Singapore population. No good.
We managed to drop by the crystal shop & visit Kelly for a lil' chat & a mini reunion. Good.
Amidst the jam-packed crowd were kiasu aunties, damn rude Ah Lian from PRC & disgusting uncles who tot digging their nose in public is a cool & socially-accepted behavior. Very No Good.
Upon our arrival, realised OG is having 20% store-wide discount. Very Good.
After we started on our quest for cheap & good bargains, i oso started sneezing. No Good.
Coz i couldn't stop sneezing afterwch. Very, Very No Good.
After nth sneeze, my head started throbbing & positively attained numbness. Very, Very, Very No Good.
I honestly wanted to find a bed & concuss, but i reckon GF2 mite skin mi alive, so i hung around for abit more. I m considerate. Good.
Did not manage to find alota items dat interest mi tho. No Good.
Settled at Sakae Sushi for a sumptuous feast. Very Good.
After dinner felt positively more energetic so we dcided to continue shyapping & proceeded to Seiyu. Good.
Within 50 steps towards Seiyu, i started sneezing again. Reli No Good.
Bcoz afterwch i cudn't stop sneezing again & my head started throbbing & positively attained numbness again. Super No Good.
Realised i m running out of tissues & the area under my nose is sore from all the rubbing & scrunching. The sick & on-drugs look is completed wif teary eyes & dark rings. Very No Good.
Saw a cute top at Dorothy Perkins & wento tried it but didnt like it. No Good.
Checked out latest lingerie section & realised there r 10, 000 kinda patterns to choose from. Good.
But didnt buy any eventually bcoz there r reli 10, 000 kinda patterns to choose from. No Good.
When we came out of Seiyu, we realised moz of the shops r oredi closed or semi-closed. No Good.
Decided to make a trip to the loo to pay water bills. Good.
Checked out the display windows of closed shops on the way & realised some cute wears. Good.
But dey were closed. No Good.
So we dcided to head back there to continue from where we left off, tmr. Good.
Saw a masculine he-she in the loo upon swinging the door open. He-she was checking him-herself out in the mirror. No Good.
After loo we dcided to get some drinks frm Cold Storage since bof of us r dying frm thirst. Good.
On the way, i saw another He-She sashaying towards my direction& past mi while flicking her long..erm...flowy locks. Not Very Good.
At the entrance, there was yet another He-She or She-He (she reli looks abit 2 manly for a woman but i tot she spoke wif quite a high-pitched voice so i reli cant tell) wif folded arms lookg slightly perturbed, seemingly waiting for someone. Not Very Good.
Walked home from Chinese Garden MRT coz i didnt wanto waste money taking a bus from JE so i saved 60 cents. Good.
But walking home in long-sleeved top, teary eyes, runny nose & throbbing head is reli no joke. No Good.
Finally reached home 15min later & felt super relieved. Good.
After taking a long bath, i was satisfied & lazed on the bed. Very Good.
Then i watched the horror Japanese Drama, coz i was bored & tot laz week's episode was still ok. No Good.
Coz i got freaked. Reli No Good.
Thank goodness for the invention of remotes. Very Good.
After tv, came on to blog instead of resting bcoz tmr is public holiday. No nid to wrk on Mondays. Absofugginglutely Good!
But was quick to realise dat i stil have to wrk on Tues, Wed, Thur, Fri & Sat. Absofugginglutely, moz definitely & certainly, without a doubt, Super Duper No Good.
Got a sms frm DB dat kopi session is on tmr 8pm at the Teochew Porridge kopitiam. Good.
Oso realised dat all dat was left to Eddy Neo a.k.a The Funkiest Nerd's blog was "I am sorry." Wonder wot happened to him. No Good.
Excruciating ulcer diminished 2day after application of miraculous Xi Gua Shuang (Watermelon..ermm...Powder?) yesterday nite. Very Good.
Tink mi shud sleep now coz of mi throbbing head & runny nose.
My Sunday. Good or no Good? ¶ J poppycocked at 1:03:00 AM
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It was jam-packed wif the rest of the Singapore population. No good.
We managed to drop by the crystal shop & visit Kelly for a lil' chat & a mini reunion. Good.
Amidst the jam-packed crowd were kiasu aunties, damn rude Ah Lian from PRC & disgusting uncles who tot digging their nose in public is a cool & socially-accepted behavior. Very No Good.
Upon our arrival, realised OG is having 20% store-wide discount. Very Good.
After we started on our quest for cheap & good bargains, i oso started sneezing. No Good.
Coz i couldn't stop sneezing afterwch. Very, Very No Good.
After nth sneeze, my head started throbbing & positively attained numbness. Very, Very, Very No Good.
I honestly wanted to find a bed & concuss, but i reckon GF2 mite skin mi alive, so i hung around for abit more. I m considerate. Good.
Did not manage to find alota items dat interest mi tho. No Good.
Settled at Sakae Sushi for a sumptuous feast. Very Good.
After dinner felt positively more energetic so we dcided to continue shyapping & proceeded to Seiyu. Good.
Within 50 steps towards Seiyu, i started sneezing again. Reli No Good.
Bcoz afterwch i cudn't stop sneezing again & my head started throbbing & positively attained numbness again. Super No Good.
Realised i m running out of tissues & the area under my nose is sore from all the rubbing & scrunching. The sick & on-drugs look is completed wif teary eyes & dark rings. Very No Good.
Saw a cute top at Dorothy Perkins & wento tried it but didnt like it. No Good.
Checked out latest lingerie section & realised there r 10, 000 kinda patterns to choose from. Good.
But didnt buy any eventually bcoz there r reli 10, 000 kinda patterns to choose from. No Good.
When we came out of Seiyu, we realised moz of the shops r oredi closed or semi-closed. No Good.
Decided to make a trip to the loo to pay water bills. Good.
Checked out the display windows of closed shops on the way & realised some cute wears. Good.
But dey were closed. No Good.
So we dcided to head back there to continue from where we left off, tmr. Good.
Saw a masculine he-she in the loo upon swinging the door open. He-she was checking him-herself out in the mirror. No Good.
After loo we dcided to get some drinks frm Cold Storage since bof of us r dying frm thirst. Good.
On the way, i saw another He-She sashaying towards my direction& past mi while flicking her long..erm...flowy locks. Not Very Good.
At the entrance, there was yet another He-She or She-He (she reli looks abit 2 manly for a woman but i tot she spoke wif quite a high-pitched voice so i reli cant tell) wif folded arms lookg slightly perturbed, seemingly waiting for someone. Not Very Good.
Walked home from Chinese Garden MRT coz i didnt wanto waste money taking a bus from JE so i saved 60 cents. Good.
But walking home in long-sleeved top, teary eyes, runny nose & throbbing head is reli no joke. No Good.
Finally reached home 15min later & felt super relieved. Good.
After taking a long bath, i was satisfied & lazed on the bed. Very Good.
Then i watched the horror Japanese Drama, coz i was bored & tot laz week's episode was still ok. No Good.
Coz i got freaked. Reli No Good.
Thank goodness for the invention of remotes. Very Good.
After tv, came on to blog instead of resting bcoz tmr is public holiday. No nid to wrk on Mondays. Absofugginglutely Good!
But was quick to realise dat i stil have to wrk on Tues, Wed, Thur, Fri & Sat. Absofugginglutely, moz definitely & certainly, without a doubt, Super Duper No Good.
Got a sms frm DB dat kopi session is on tmr 8pm at the Teochew Porridge kopitiam. Good.
Oso realised dat all dat was left to Eddy Neo a.k.a The Funkiest Nerd's blog was "I am sorry." Wonder wot happened to him. No Good.
Excruciating ulcer diminished 2day after application of miraculous Xi Gua Shuang (Watermelon..ermm...Powder?) yesterday nite. Very Good.
Tink mi shud sleep now coz of mi throbbing head & runny nose.
My Sunday. Good or no Good? ¶ J poppycocked at 1:03:00 AM
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