Scarred Tissue.
I had a long tok wif Ed & Corrine after the shift at the bleddy Career Fair. Corrine just got married & Ed has marriage plans. I told dem i canot understand wad makes dem able to just say "Yes" to another being just lydat. It is dat amazing 2 mi, bcoz i simply canot fathom how.
I probly had discussed about dis issue oredi but still, when it hits mi, i m pretty much still in awe.
Alota unhappy things have happened recently. I duno wot has happened. Probly i bad-mouthed CNY too much, n i'm sufferring from bad kharma now.
Many a times, i find it hard to express my emotions. Words r just at the tip of my tongue but I duno how 2 phrase it in a non-dramatic manner so dat i dun appear to be over-vulnerable.
And the thing is, i m lydat to everybody.
But when i dun say it, it normally gets bottled up and trust mi, dat is hazardous.
But somethings shdn't even be said.
Simply bcoz dey shud be understood without saying.
And when dey r said, it becomes meaningless.
Same goes for gestures & actions, somethings ought to be done without asking.
Bcoz when somethings r done after asking oni, it becomes meaningless as well.
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Warning: The following r my inner tots blogged aloud, so steer clear if u canot stand sappy stuff.
I just have to be sappy tonite.
Qns: When u find a love, he or she will be placed on number wad on ur priority & important list?
Qns: Do u luv urslf or do u luv him or her more?
Qns: Shud we be contented if we r at least on the top 5 on our partner's list?
Qns: When will people stop taking others for granted?
Qns: Where can we get / buy a good man?
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Sigh...I m so god damn emotional i wanto slap myslf now.
But there r seriously no good men out there anymore, i tell u gers...if u have a gd man by ur side oredi, pls cling onto dem 4 life like a koala clinging to a tree or something...u get d idea.
From the instances i c around mi, I reli conclude dat there r no more faithful men out there. At least not for the majority.
1 gd eg; I hv a couple of guys frens, all cases exclusive of each other, who moaned n whined about love lost or love not requitted, n basically sulk their time away bcoz dey can't get the ger dey hv fell so deeply in luv wif. And den i hv to console the shit outta dem so dat dey dun take it so hard.
But, guess wad?
1 minute later, u get some news from 3rd party X dat, dat very same guy who was so miserable he didnt get dat ger, has got himslf a new gf! In less than....say....3 min?
Ok, the 3min is exaggeration.
But my point is, wad happened to the original love???
And wads wif the efficient rebound???
I mean, doesn't ANYBODY truly luvs ANYBODY anymore?????
Does the lower part of the guy's body reli takes over every bit of his consciousness left???
It's not dat i wud prefer dem to continue moping about the loss or wot...but FUG!! Dey came around waaaaay too fast lo can!?!??!
I felt so betrayed 4 wadever reasons, seems like i've just wasted a fugging load of time trying to console dem 2 not feel so bad about it...but i didn't exactly encourage dem to jump into another gurl's pants so fugging soon lo!!! Reli exploit my sympathy chord can?!!?!!!
Fugging idiots.
I tink i shud swear to celibacy for gd or stg. I fugging hate men now.
I nid to swear out loud. And binge. Excuse mi 4 now.