More ramblings.
It is just damn frustrating when something dat i didnt do bcomes my liability. It is also darn frustrating when i do something out of kindness but end up getting annoyed stares due to my good sense of responsibility even when it was impersonal. Much less to say, it is Utmostly frustrating when other people claim credit for wot i toiled for.
Dat's y i say, work is work, and colleagues will alwaz remain as colleagues.
Recently, things happened. And prior to it, i tot my life wud at least be a tad different AFTER it.
Turns out the "event" was more hype than happening.
I still eat wot i eat, do wot i do & say wot i say.
I tot i wud be more emotionally involved afterwhich. Which i am, reli. But probably i was a lil' too romanticized in a way & anticipated too much improvements dat i ended up wif half a face buried in sand, and the other half on its way into the sand.
Dat's y i m increasingly emotionless by the minute i guess. Bcoz most of the time nothing reli turns out to be wot i imagined, so b4 anything happens after Scenario A, i wud oredi had Consequences A, B, C, D, E etc systematically forecasted in my crown. Sometimes the matrix in my mind scares mi.
And honestly, nothing much amazes me anymore. Given the dynamicity of events around me, i have to learn to deal wif unprecendented situations in 1 way or another.
It does mi gd such dat no matter wot shit comes my way, i oredi half expected it so i wudnt be swept off my feet in a single downfall.
The drawback to dat safety mechanism will of coz be a generation or rather, an evolution of an unfeeling, over-programmed & unexciting individual.
Perhaps i shud watch "Robots".
Of the people i've come in contact on my job so far, none believes i m only almoz half a yr old on my job. In a way, i m flattered, for it plausibly implies dat i m too seasoned for a rookie.
In another, it cud oso mean dat i m too mechanical such dat everything dat rolls out of my tongue r but standard, numb & alienated advices.
It is not the 1st time i received comments, arguably reprimanding i m too calm & composed sometimes, & i suspect dey mean, too so for my own good.
My manager's eyes grew so wide when she found out i do cross-stitches at my free time & I m still doing it.
It quietens my mind a lil' & forces mi to be much more patient than i m in life.
I nid to tink about how to pitch my candidates across next week when i visit Heineken wif Yvonne.
Some people fish, some people stitch.