Tuesday, July 06, 2004
mood swing.
So much for the personality test..gosh..ungoth mi pls!
I'm hooked on caffeine again..dammit. Used to down it espy much during uni days coz i nided it to stay sober during lectures n tutorials but darn..rite now,it's juz purely cravings itchin'. I'm downing my 2nd dose for 2day now, wif a leg up on the sofa rest while listening to George Michael..so 1980s. I feel totally wasted 2day.
It's juz 1 of those days u ponder way 2 much beyond the healthy level. Alota tots swimmg in my head, mite b the caffeine hyper-activating my cognitive state, seriously contemplating if i shd go into production area..but dat wud mean my uni cert wud worth less than hogwash n i wud hv to suffer the fate of a rookie. E offered 2 make a few calls to hook mi up @ Oak Tree yday..but i wasn't sure if i'm ready. But else, wad m i gd for? K suggested creative designer coz he tinks i'm cut out for mind-boggling stuff like dis, of wch he gathered frm my dynamic MSN nicks..n his frens who r in dis line apparently noe fug at drawing..we'll c.
O..the crazy KM episode yday..disturbed mi like mad. I've asked him over MSN at nite n he said "NO" n i bliv him ok! I feel he has no reason to not admit if he reli has a crush on mi, NOT possible btw. So, E, u r wrong!!! Stop trying to convince mi he's lying 2 mi!!! Ur 3rd eye is not infallible okkkk!!Buahaha...Cmon! It's KM we're toking abt here..r u peeps mad?! To tink even Mo says there's a high possibility...*rolls eyes* We juz happen to click in a platonic way dats all..PUUUURRR-LLLiiiii-SSSSSS....
Goink to JB wif Eliz n JL on thur, 2 days frm now, to chk out the Larkin bus schedule. Hven change money, guess i'll do dat 2mr. Mayb i can get my outfit for the silly commencemt happening nxt week @ City Sq for a fairer price. Wanted to hunt for it 2day but Mo changed his mind abt miting mi dis morning n i'm lazy 2 make plans to get out of the hse..altho i'm sure gfs wudnt mind shoppg anyday..o well..mite s well stay home, since it's drizzling out there now. N my bank a/c is reli cui oredi..-_-...
Adrian told mi over icq yday his okaasan wud b coming to sg in august n he tried to hint, actly not hint, rather outrightly, he hopes i brg her out shopping :\ Die..my jap is so rusty. Aiya..wch reminds mi, i m so bo sim to my own host kazoku. Didnt even send dem letter or their presents since i came bck. The presents i bought r so collecting dust n dat blardee post office trip juz nvr got round materialising. Fug. Reminds mi of how Adrian n Khai used to call mi an ingrate wif the highest amt of denigration one cud ever fill in an insult. *LOL*
Got a 4warded from Nicholas juz now. Kinda swt actly. Hasn't heard frm him 4 quite a while now. He stil has no idea i'm attached. In fact, i tink lotsa peeps r stil un-informed. O well..can't xpect mi 2 go ard n trumpet it rite?! Mayb he is attached s well..i wudn't noe either. HAha..Anyway i didnt reciprocate his msg n neither did i reply any smses i got 2day..not even mo's, coz i feel so VERI aloof 2day. Wonder if he stil regards mi s his quarter..hahaha..he wud hv to cut his fraction now i guess. Hmm..stimes he gifs mi a feeling dat altho he's a real flirt, n he's not afraid to let peeps c it, i bliv beneath dat flamboyant exterior, he's actly gonna b real nice to his formal/ official gf..wch reminds mi of his Status Hierarchy..haha.."Must bcum my lover 1st b4 i noe if u can b my gf ma..lovers can hv a lot, but gf, can oni hv 1." He does hv his serious times s well, wch, in my opinion, r the times he exhibits most of his charms.
A man who is seriously engaging in stg (read: not including crimes or during perverse activities like ogling, wanking or digging nose) is ALWAZ charming. I'm a sucker for men driving (read: not including uncles or any men ogling, wanking or digging nose while waiting 4 traffic signs to change), leading the ger, riding bikes (minus NSRs n phantoms..err sori, but i tink NSRs r selfish bikes n phantoms r for freakin' ah-nehs) n espy for men who r concentrating on a game of pool. O wch reminds mi again..time 2 play pool soon. O..wch reminds mi AGAIN, my bank a/c is still cui.
Hmmm..wonder how is FH now...a.k.a the guy who molded mi into a busa-sucker, but not even near half of the bike maniac he is. Ironically, dat is oso 1 of the reasons y i didnt say yes to him previously...80% of the conversations r about bikes, 10% on how his guinea pig squeals (yes, he's a biker who kips hamsters, a guinea pig named Brownie n a rabbit; his frenz chided him 4 being a fugging ah-gua n ruining the bikers' machismo for dat. *LOL*), remaining 10% on miscellaneous stuff, n after stime, it just gets quite sickening. Plus he blatantly expressed his wish for his ger to b submissive..wch i'm obviously NOT..strange y did he ask mi still anyway..not once, not twice but THREE times! (read: Intention NOT to brag) When i finally got ard asking him y since the obvious discrepancy, he cudnt gif mi an ans..hmm..mayb it's true u dun nid a reason to luv sbody...dat is IF he was reli in luv wif mi. Wad izit wif u men dat u can't b frenz wif a ger who can't b ur lover!? Even tho' we rejected u in dat way, it doesn't mean we dun wanto kip u s a fren okkk...*annoyed*
I reek of coffee.
¶ J poppycocked at 4:10:00 PM
I'm hooked on caffeine again..dammit. Used to down it espy much during uni days coz i nided it to stay sober during lectures n tutorials but darn..rite now,it's juz purely cravings itchin'. I'm downing my 2nd dose for 2day now, wif a leg up on the sofa rest while listening to George Michael..so 1980s. I feel totally wasted 2day.
It's juz 1 of those days u ponder way 2 much beyond the healthy level. Alota tots swimmg in my head, mite b the caffeine hyper-activating my cognitive state, seriously contemplating if i shd go into production area..but dat wud mean my uni cert wud worth less than hogwash n i wud hv to suffer the fate of a rookie. E offered 2 make a few calls to hook mi up @ Oak Tree yday..but i wasn't sure if i'm ready. But else, wad m i gd for? K suggested creative designer coz he tinks i'm cut out for mind-boggling stuff like dis, of wch he gathered frm my dynamic MSN nicks..n his frens who r in dis line apparently noe fug at drawing..we'll c.
O..the crazy KM episode yday..disturbed mi like mad. I've asked him over MSN at nite n he said "NO" n i bliv him ok! I feel he has no reason to not admit if he reli has a crush on mi, NOT possible btw. So, E, u r wrong!!! Stop trying to convince mi he's lying 2 mi!!! Ur 3rd eye is not infallible okkkk!!Buahaha...Cmon! It's KM we're toking abt here..r u peeps mad?! To tink even Mo says there's a high possibility...*rolls eyes* We juz happen to click in a platonic way dats all..PUUUURRR-LLLiiiii-SSSSSS....
Goink to JB wif Eliz n JL on thur, 2 days frm now, to chk out the Larkin bus schedule. Hven change money, guess i'll do dat 2mr. Mayb i can get my outfit for the silly commencemt happening nxt week @ City Sq for a fairer price. Wanted to hunt for it 2day but Mo changed his mind abt miting mi dis morning n i'm lazy 2 make plans to get out of the hse..altho i'm sure gfs wudnt mind shoppg anyday..o well..mite s well stay home, since it's drizzling out there now. N my bank a/c is reli cui oredi..-_-...
Adrian told mi over icq yday his okaasan wud b coming to sg in august n he tried to hint, actly not hint, rather outrightly, he hopes i brg her out shopping :\ Die..my jap is so rusty. Aiya..wch reminds mi, i m so bo sim to my own host kazoku. Didnt even send dem letter or their presents since i came bck. The presents i bought r so collecting dust n dat blardee post office trip juz nvr got round materialising. Fug. Reminds mi of how Adrian n Khai used to call mi an ingrate wif the highest amt of denigration one cud ever fill in an insult. *LOL*
Got a 4warded from Nicholas juz now. Kinda swt actly. Hasn't heard frm him 4 quite a while now. He stil has no idea i'm attached. In fact, i tink lotsa peeps r stil un-informed. O well..can't xpect mi 2 go ard n trumpet it rite?! Mayb he is attached s well..i wudn't noe either. HAha..Anyway i didnt reciprocate his msg n neither did i reply any smses i got 2day..not even mo's, coz i feel so VERI aloof 2day. Wonder if he stil regards mi s his quarter..hahaha..he wud hv to cut his fraction now i guess. Hmm..stimes he gifs mi a feeling dat altho he's a real flirt, n he's not afraid to let peeps c it, i bliv beneath dat flamboyant exterior, he's actly gonna b real nice to his formal/ official gf..wch reminds mi of his Status Hierarchy..haha.."Must bcum my lover 1st b4 i noe if u can b my gf ma..lovers can hv a lot, but gf, can oni hv 1." He does hv his serious times s well, wch, in my opinion, r the times he exhibits most of his charms.
A man who is seriously engaging in stg (read: not including crimes or during perverse activities like ogling, wanking or digging nose) is ALWAZ charming. I'm a sucker for men driving (read: not including uncles or any men ogling, wanking or digging nose while waiting 4 traffic signs to change), leading the ger, riding bikes (minus NSRs n phantoms..err sori, but i tink NSRs r selfish bikes n phantoms r for freakin' ah-nehs) n espy for men who r concentrating on a game of pool. O wch reminds mi again..time 2 play pool soon. O..wch reminds mi AGAIN, my bank a/c is still cui.
Hmmm..wonder how is FH now...a.k.a the guy who molded mi into a busa-sucker, but not even near half of the bike maniac he is. Ironically, dat is oso 1 of the reasons y i didnt say yes to him previously...80% of the conversations r about bikes, 10% on how his guinea pig squeals (yes, he's a biker who kips hamsters, a guinea pig named Brownie n a rabbit; his frenz chided him 4 being a fugging ah-gua n ruining the bikers' machismo for dat. *LOL*), remaining 10% on miscellaneous stuff, n after stime, it just gets quite sickening. Plus he blatantly expressed his wish for his ger to b submissive..wch i'm obviously NOT..strange y did he ask mi still anyway..not once, not twice but THREE times! (read: Intention NOT to brag) When i finally got ard asking him y since the obvious discrepancy, he cudnt gif mi an ans..hmm..mayb it's true u dun nid a reason to luv sbody...dat is IF he was reli in luv wif mi. Wad izit wif u men dat u can't b frenz wif a ger who can't b ur lover!? Even tho' we rejected u in dat way, it doesn't mean we dun wanto kip u s a fren okkk...*annoyed*
I reek of coffee.
¶ J poppycocked at 4:10:00 PM