A Blemish to My Tract Record.
I can safely say dat even tho nothing worked out from my past relationships, i still maintain a very diplomatic frenship, at the v least, wif most of my exes, even till today.

Dis evening, i was reminded of the one & oni blemish to my remarkable tract record.

When Sia told mi dat said blemish, aka, latest Ex, did not turn up for his blood test, i knew i was so frickin' rite to have called it quits.

All his undoings to our relationship in the past aside, upon hearing wad he said when approached for an important favour; "I will check my schedule & let U noe again", "I hv been bz", "I was sick for the past few days", i was highly disgusted & deeply appalled.

Yea, i m sure u hv a tight schedule to adhere to. I 4got u hv to go for high tea sessions wif Osama Bin Laden every afternoon so dat u can tink of strategies to take over NATO one day.

I m sure u r a highly bz individual, so bz u spend ur time staring at ur fone hoping somebody wud care to call u & writing X'mas cards to ur own address everyday.

I m sure u hv been so sick for the past few days u can oni manage to take a dump in ur own bed coz u dunch hv the strength to crawl outta ur bed to shit n pee, much less go to the hospital for a blood test.

I m oso sure dat prior to dis few days, before the favour was asked, u hv been fit enuff to kill a buffalo.

Even tho i didn't manage to help, at least i wanted to & i went for the check. He is, supposedly, a DA NAN REN, dun tell mi he dun even hv the guts to help a fren in nid!?

No matter how equal a man & a woman hv become, there r still things a man SHOULD noe how to do for a woman & in dis case, helping a fren in nid does not even involve a gender ability issue, yet, he has the cheek to cook up some lame o' xcuses to chicken out. How outstanding.

It's not child's play, it's about saving a life for Christ's sake.

F**king useless piece of crap!!!!

I m pissed. Not just angry wif the fact dat i wasted my time on dis bastard, but angry wif a fact dat he is so seriously an asshole i canot tink of another human being on earth who is more ass-holic than him.

Honestly i wudn't shed a tear if he is the one in trouble. I will still help if he asked, but oni bcoz i wanto show him dat it was his good karma in his previous life he was destined to mit mi in dis life & dat i m far from being such a lowly scum like him.

Dis is how much i detest him.

*Takes a deep breath to sooth my disturbed soul while repeatedly uttering "Goofrabaaaa" to myself*

I hope he suffers for his self-centredness.

I reli do.  ¶ J poppycocked at 10:01:00 PM
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  A Realisation.
Dis boring Sunday has been oso a rainy one.

Rite from the beginning i gain consciousness, the sky was gloomy till now, even after the sun has set, it doesn't make much of a difference.

I've alwaz tot i prefer the rain.

But the gloominess was abit too long to bear. It makes one sluggish & drowsy.

Then it suddenly dawned upon mi, it mite be the after-rain dat i adore.  ¶ J poppycocked at 6:45:00 PM
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  I Hate Sundays. Sundays have alwaz been the worst for mi. I can't stand it bcoz it's not oni the eve of the commencement of all evils but, Sunday oso, by definition, connotes F-A-M-I-L-Y.

Well i duno about u, but i dun normally wake up early on Sundays, for it is the oni day in the week i get to sleep in. Sometimes when i'm lucky, I get thrown a Saturday too.

Wif the entire respect i have for sleep-ins on a Sunday, i get absolutely irritated when there r disturbances to the quality time i have wif my bed.

Dis Sunday, today, wud have been a great instant to quote.

My nanny showed up at my doorstep dis morning, uninvited s usual. For the unawares, she is a very loud woman.

Of coz she can come visit, but not when it's without notification & when it brings huge disruptions to my sleep. I dun understand y she cannot understand dat not everybody wakes up s early s she does.

So even wif my mum nudging mi to wake up to receive her, i refuse to budge. I almoz rudely buried my face under my bolster wif my back turned on her.

The message was clear, unless it's a life & death situation, otherwise, show ur own way outta my room pls.

When i finally woke up at noon, she was still around. I took my own sweet time to wash up & bathe, s i was still too annoyed to be entertaining her.

When i finally joined her on the couch in the living room, she started to tok to mi, wif the 1st question being "How much r u earning?" 2nd being "Then how much do you give ur mother?" & 3rd being "So r u going to gif mi any?"

!!!!!!!!! WAD THE FARK!?!?!!?!?!

I understand she sees mi s family but she've gotto understand dat she was just an old neighbour who used to take care of mi when i was a child & dat was eons ago!

She was paid for goodness's sake!! Even my expenses when i was staying wif her were paid by my parents! And she tot i did'nt know just bcoz i was young. Well i say she better start realising dat i was young but, youth does not equate to ignorance.

After answering her 1st qns, I smiled in response, n pretended like i did not pay attention to her questions.

Of coz i understand it's oni customary to give some money back to our own parents but it's so upsetting dat people ask u dis sorta qns like s if I owe it to dem. Like hello?? I m working so hard to save up for my own future, not to gif u people all my salary as some fucking payment of gratitude or filial piety!!

Best part is, when she was about to take off, she sorta lingered around abit, like s if she was anticipating mi to whip out $100 from my wallet & hand it to her.

SO-NOT-GONNA-HAPPEN.

I looked her in the eyes & uttered my byes calmly & after which, i put my concentration back on my food, acting blur & clearly sending her the message dat i was not about to start giving her any money.

If i were to be raised to become nothing but a money tree, den perhaps given a choice, i would have chose not to be raised.

Wad happened to unconditional love of kinship???

Family my ass!!  ¶ J poppycocked at 5:34:00 PM
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  Boo Hoo Hoo.
Went for training at M.O in the morning, it was a boring half a day, which basically translates to more work for us in a nutshell.

When i came back, i was floooooded wif new orders, much to my dismay, not to mention dat i oredi got enuff things to work on. I noe who dey can consider for a new hire-- an octopus.

In fact my team has been so stressed up recently dat one of my colleague, MT, broke down in office yesterday. Generally, the team morale has been & still is super low, of course contributed by alota factors.

On the way back to office after the training today, i had the most hart to hart tok wif G. I've known her for almoz a year but rarely we get to discuss about our personal tots so in-depth.

Interesting to hear her opinion of mi. Must say she over-rated mi. Muahaha...well, not dat i have any objections la.

She oso told mi her history wif her hubby; how dey met, wad dey went thru, & how she finally decided he's the one. The info was helpful. I got to learn quite a fair bit about her & at the same time, i can't help but reflect upon my current own situation based on her told experiences.

She told mi back then, she took 3 days to settle her tix & packed up to fly to Australia. At dat point of time, she even told her mum dat she duno when she will be coming back again. Obviously, her parents were worried sick about her, & even tot she was on the run coz she committed a crime. Wahaha.

She lost contact wif her then-bf-now-hubby when she went over but of coz, gradually down the road, she realised he is still the one for her after all dis while, despite him not being her typical dream guy.

There is oni 1 reason for her turn-back; she noes dat he will alwaz love her more than she loves him. I must agree dat, women totally dig dat, even if it comes across as a selfish point of view.

And she said dis, "Even tho when i'm wif him, i m forced to start making some decisions which i dun like to do, but i dun wanto spend my life treasuring a guy more than he treasures mi."

Well. I've gotto say, i alwaz appreciate opinions from a woman's point of view. Nothing beats having a hart to hart tok wif a gurlfren.

Reli......Nothing. Maybe not even shyapping.  ¶ J poppycocked at 9:41:00 PM
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